This is it

I loved michael jackson's " this is it"
and especially liked that he loves and appreciates nature

beautiful people....

Some from movies, music, and anywhere else....Theres more where this came from..but here are a few.
..But before you even start reading or looking at these pictures...
Please know that I have a slight obsessive attraction to long haired men with facial hair..beards, mustaches, etc.
You very well might not think any of these guys are attractive..thats completely fine...But if you dont find these men attractive...then something is very wrong with you..just kidding.
also. please note that I find these men attractive in certain movies. ..One man may be beautiful in one film, and terribly not beautiful in another movie, on the inside, or in real life..so please..bare with me..

Russell crowe


Jim from count of monte cristo



johnny depp is of course great in all films..he is an incredible..but this isn't for him
this is for EDWARD scissor hands...


Christian Bale, or Jack kelly, if you will... Great in all films

Young Robert Redford ahh, just plain charming. love his mountain man roles


Simba : starring in the Lion King...I'm being completely serious. He's my choice of all disney movie characters.




Paul Newman


Mel Gibson in Braveheart





John cusack: In every eighties movie he was in and in serendipity. Very cute/ funny


Cat stevens: beautiful in sight and sound

Ewan McGregor : In moulin Rouge and Big fish- completely charming!



Gerard : a handsome man, I know we didnt see his face in the phantom of the opera..but I knew that under the mask there was a beauty


Of course, Jack Johnson




The ever so talented James Taylor

moon

One song I sang within myself
and shared it with the moon
no song unheard and twas not mine
yet still for me was writ
that yet I thought no else was there
to hear or ever know

such burning on my cheek
from what lingered in my throat
a lonesome heeping weep from a
hoping lonesome soul

But still,still the moon,
who must have seen my eyes,
shared some his light with me
yet in silence, not obliged

and so someday I rest
though this song within me stir
still holding for the night
for the moon to see my eyes.

I'm so happy that I am a great blogger! yeah!

okay....the title to this post is a little sarcastic.... You know how almost everyone ( and I'm counting myself here..) is always aplogizing for being a bad blogger...and for not posting in weeks or even months, and they may even be guilty of a short apologetic post....which is really just pretty pointless and cruel because there fellow blog friends get excited that there is something suddenly know and interesting to their friends blog...just to find that its an apology, and nothing really interesting, or enlightening, or cool to look at! well..I knew I was probably about to apologize for being such a lame blogger......BUT! (Before you think I'm being NEGATIVE..)..I've actually made a decision to not apologize or feel sad or bad or mean or angry..but to be positive...about all things!

you see.. I'm trying to have little goals for each month, this month is my positive month.
..Now, by saying this, I dont want you to go tell your friends that you read my blog and you think i might be a downer negative- not -fun-to-be-around-at-all person because I'm trying to work on being more positive.. Because I don't believe I am that. I think I'm a pretty positive lady...But it cant hurt at all to be just a little more POSITIVE, right?!

Positive as in having a better attitude about sort of less than wonderful situations...positive about my self, my body, etc. and positive and upbeat to others...to try and give a little bit of brightness to others who might be having "negative" days.
catchin my drift?

You could do it with me if you want, try to be a little more positive about everything with me this month of November...which by the way...anyone else completely awed at NOVEMber right now?!...not only the gorgeous weather, but that the goose is getting fat, and that next month is Christmas!..

anyway... thought this video was funny... " I like to do it cuz its fun, its fun to do bad things".... YIKES! what will this kid be doing in the next 10-15 years?!



other thoughts....
- latarian is a sweet name
- what is a hoodrat, and what do they do? apparently steal cars
- no video games for a WHOLE weekend..how tragic!

The Good news, and The Bad news....

The good thing:wow, I had heard of Michael Dowdle before, and I think I thought something of him....but after having him perform at the Homestead in Midway for my Dad's business I am a complete fan! This guy has some serious talent and awesome songs. Lucky me, I got his CD "TOUCH" for no moneys at all!!!!and I have listened to number 4- " St. Valentine" about a hundred times! ...check it out....




I Love it because it sort of has an 80's Chicago feel to it....who doesn't love chicago love songs!?.....




The bad news...
ALSO...I made caramel apples yesterday.... golden delicious apples from crandalls fruit farm...


dunked in homemade caramel


that is to die for.

dipped in white chocolate

and sprinkled with cinnamon sugar..

Sounds like Pretty wonderful news, Doesn't it?.......REALLY makes you want to eat one DOESN'T IT? really really makes you want to make them right this very instant..DOESN'T IT!!!!?


WRONG!..completely wrong in fact, because here is what happend!!!....

...So, first off and foremost, I'll start from the beginning....here's the thing...the choco mountain fact calls this delightful treant the " apple pie apple"...It is my most favorite flavor, and so I thought I would take a whack at brewin' them up in the ol' kitchen.....


Here is where the bad news comes....I'm sadly publically announcing that my caramel was a little over cooked..and it turned out pretty stiff....like it might break a tooth....seriously.... YET ANOTHER COOKING FAILURE!? How can this be happening?!

I knew the caramel was at soft ball stage, and deep down I just knew that I should take it off the heat and stir in the vanilla, etc....... but I was nervous that it might be too gooey or something( normal to be nervous about a bad outcome happening when the last few things you've tried to make have turned out absolutley hideous!)..

but now i think I'd take too gooey over hard as a rock.....

I'm just down, because you see,I tell people that I like to cook, because truly i do love it, indeed..... but when I tell them this they instantly think I must be a fantastic cook and ask me to cook or bake something for them--- I used to think I was a pretty decent cook---but now its like I'm being humbled for ever having even a small ounce of pride in my ability to cook things.....its just a little discouraging when most of what you make doesnt turn out very good. ahh...Its okay, it was my first time really doing the full caramel apple deal, and Next time will be much much better,hopefully, RIGHT?!.....

now I have like 12 hard carmel apples in my fridge. I keep cutting into them hoping maybe it was only half the batch that was hard...but I've yet to find that soft sweet carameled apple!
AND! On top of all that I just said, I gave SIX caramel apples to my friend Dallin, to give to all of his roommates- Which, I am sure have heard me talk about loving to cook, and have heard Dallin so kindly bragging to them about my cooking ( just to make me feel good, I'm sure...) to them... So now they are all getting a real taste of it, and finding out that it's very average if not below.

I'm embarrassed.


Special thanks to Dear Kate Clark, or maybe I should be thanking Mrs. and sister Nann Black, after all , it was her to find the caramel recipe in the news paper.....but Kate to sneak the " secret" recipe to me, and to give me some secret tips on how to make them extra great....I'm sorry to report such a bad outcome, Kate. Next time, next time!

lOVE YOU, bye

We have a Savior

Today I walked through clothes lines filled with brightly colored hanging shirts.Each of which told a story, some of secrets kept for years, others of their search for truth and love in their life,others told of their hatred and anger, hatred for those that have hurt them so much, and have caused them undescribable pain in their life.These people, who were born innocent children, and were victims of abuse live with Pain in their lives that cannot be healed by anyone except Jesus Christ.It is through His atonement they can finally be completed healed from this pain. It is with His help that they can recieve strength to forgive their abusers.It is only through Him. He is the Savior.
Teachers, Friends, Parents, grandparents,family members,babysitters,doctors, therapists...all of these people, though some of them ( for us) have given us comfort through our times of need, cannot be completely depended on. Especially when you are living with the pain that comes from all types of ritual abuse.These victims had been betrayed by their so called "loved ones"...people that each human being should be able to trust.
These innocent people have survived things that I cannot begin to imagine.I will never understand how they feel and what they have gone through, but I felt their pain, I cried with them as I read about the pain in their hearts.
Why do they have to deal with this? Why do they have to live with such pain? It is not fair. Life is just not fair.Some of these people do not know who they can turn to, they do not feel like ANYONE can ever understand the pain they have felt, and truly help them, love them as they deserve, and save them.
I felt hope when I read one of the shirts that told of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ being the only truth in this victims life. That through the atonement,she was being healed.
I love Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father for loving and caring for these people, both the victims and abusers. I love that there is a plan for all of us. These innocent sweet souls are suffering so much, and living with his pain in their life that is so severe, But they will be okay, they will be healed, they will not feel that way forever. Heavenly Father will take care of them, and through the atonment they WILL be healed. That is what it is there for.
I do not know what things I will have to endure in my future. I do not know what heartaches and pains I will face, but I know where I can find my strength through those times, and I know who I can depend on, because He will never leave me.

We have a savior! He lives!

the church is true, despite what the world has to say about it. The Lord has overcome the world.


Read this...Its awesome:

NFL OWNER, PAUL ALLEN, of The Seattle Seahawks..... SPEAKS OUT ON MORMONS

Paul Allen is the owner of the Seattle Seahawks, the ones
who played the Pittsburgh Steelers for the Super Bowl a few years ago.
He is also the owner of the Portland Trail Blazers NBA basketball team
and is co-partner with Bill Gates in Microsoft.
He wrote this editorial in the Santa Clarita, California newspaper:

I have heard and seen enough!
I have lived in the West all my life. I have worked around
them. They have worked for me and I for them. When I was young, I
dated their daughters. When I got married they came to my
wedding. Now that I have daughters of my own, some of their boys have
dated my daughters. I would be privileged if one of them were to be
my son-in-law.

I'm talking about the Mormons.

They are some of the most honest, hardworking people I have
ever known. They are spiritual, probably more than most other
so-called religious people I have encountered. They study the Bible
and teach from it as much as any Christian church ever has. They
serve their religion without pay in every conceivable capacity. Not one
of their leaders, teachers, counselors, Bishops or music directors
receive one dime for the hours of labor they put in.


The Mormons have a non-paid ministry - a fact that is not
generally known. I have heard many times from the pulpits of others
how evil and non-Christian they are and that they will not go to
heaven. I decided recently to attend one of their services near my
home to see for myself.

What a surprise!

What I heard and saw was just the opposite from what the
religious ministers of the day were telling me. I found a very simple
service with no fanfare. I found a people with a great sense of
humor and a well-balanced spiritual side. There was no loud music. Just
a simple service, with the members themselves giving the several
short sermons.

They urge their youth to be morally clean and live a good
life. They teach the gospel of Christ, as they understand it. The
name of their church is "The Church of Jesus Christ of
Latter-Day-Saints.

Does that sound like a non-Christian church to you? I asked
them many questions about what they teach and why. I got answers
that in most cases were from the New Testament. Their ideas and
doctrines did not seem too far fetched for my understanding. When I
read their "Book of Mormon" I was also very surprised to
find just the opposite from what I had been told I would find.

Then I went to another church's pastor to ask him some
of the same questions about doctrine. To my surprise, when he found out
that I was in some way investigating the Mormons, he became
hostile. He referred to them as a non-Christian cult. I received what
sounded to me like evil propaganda against those people. He stated
bluntly that they were not Christian and that they did not fit into the
Christian mold. He also told me that they don't really believe
the Bible. He gave me a pile of anti-Mormon literature.. He began to rant
that the Mormons were not telling me the truth about what they stand
for. He didn't want to hear anything good about them. At first
I was surprised and then again, I wasn't. I began to wonder.

I have never known of a cult that supports the Boy Scouts
of America. According to the Boy Scouts, over a third of all the Boy
Scout troops in the United States are Mormon.

What cult do you know of that has a welfare system second
to none in this country? They have farms, canneries and cattle ranches
to help take care of the unfortunate ones who might be down and out
and in need of a little help. The Mormon Church has donated
millions to welfare causes around the world without a word of credit.
They have donated thousands to help rebuild Baptist churches that
were burned a few years ago. They have donated tons of medical supplies
to countries ravaged by earthquakes.

You never see them on TV begging for money. What cult do
you know that instills in its members to obey the law, pay their
taxes, serve in the military if asked and be a good Christian by living
high moral standards? Did you know that hundreds of thousands of
Mormon youth get up before high school starts in the morning to
attend a religious training class? They have basketball and softball
leagues and supervised youth dances every month.

They are recruited by the FBI, the State Department and
every police department in the country, because they are Trustworthy.
They are taught not to drink nor take drugs. They are in the Secret
Service - those who protect the President.
They serve in high leadership positions from both parties
in Congress and in the US Senate, and have been governors of several
states other than Utah. They serve with distinction and honor.

If you have Mormons living near, you will probably find
them to be your best friends and neighbors. They are Christians who
try to live what they preach. They are not perfect and they are the
first to admit this. I have known some of them who could not live their
religion, just like many of us. The rhetoric which is spread around
against them is nothing more than evil propaganda founded in
untruths.
uccessfully demonized them to the point that
the general public has no idea what they actually believe and teach. If
you really want to know the truth, go see for yourself.. You also will be
surprised.

When I first moved here some 25 years ago there were five
Mormon wards in Santa Clarita, Calif. Now there are 15.. They must be
doing something right.

You Need to watch this!

It's fifteen minutes, that are highly worth taking the time to stop and watch this video...Its inspired me to start giving more compliments to others by looking into them a little deeper, and just breathing in all of their GOOD and AMAZING and WONDERFUL...i love this so much