paige

Yours is the first face that I saw

2012-02-14T11:39:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!
I love love love love love YOU.

candy hearts

2012-02-13T13:58:00.000-08:00

Gorgeous....I love the rose gold.

I really like this ring..but I would prefer it to not be a pearl...I'm not a big pearl person. anything but.

pretty pretty

One mo' time...

2012-02-10T18:04:00.000-08:00

Little Room

2012-02-07T14:12:00.000-08:00

I'm going to do a few art projects this week...and try to reconstruct something a lot like these...

I'll be sure to show you the finished product.

I will also be on the hunt for a pretty thing like this....I may just have to buy the real one from anthro, though.

I would also like to find a pretty skirt like her...

and If there was any way possible that I could afford these shoes..I would purchase them in a heartbeat....maybe they'll go on sale.

Tonight is going to be a great night..I am off to the city of Salt with my best friend Katherine Clark...while she goes to school I will roam the streets of salt and pick up a few nice new things for myself. THEN we will adjourn to a little place called Eva's for a late night dinner..this place supposedly delicious..so I am excited.

Love is a many splendid thing

2012-02-05T14:13:00.000-08:00

I love this month. I love Valentine's day.

I love

LOVE

I love feeling Love for someone..and I also Love to be Loved.

Lots a love goin on

This month I have been thinking about LOVE...watching movies about love...talking to people about love...dreaming about Love...and Also a lot about life and how much LOVE I am going to be feeling in the next ten years...there will be a lot of Love in my heart over the next little bit..when I marry my love and have children..I think my Love will reach a height that it has never seen before...and my heart may just completely burst!

I have been thinking about my future lately...

Do you ever think about what your future home will look like?

How many children you will have...boys or girls? Or what you will name them?

Where will you live, and what will your neighborhood look like?

Maybe you will invite your friends over to eat dinner in your back yard and stay up late playing cards and laughing together.

Maybe you will live in the city...maybe you will live in the middle of nowhere..you could live somewhere really cold...or somewhere really warm.

Maybe you'll live this styled life that looks as if it is out of a magazine..or maybe you will live a much different life than that.

Will you really be in Real deep sweet love with your husband/ wife? Will your family be your pride and joy? What will you do for fun with each other?

Will you be happy?

I love thinking about all of this. I just wonder so much what my life will be like.

I have been thinking of it a lot lately..and I have loved thinking of it. It sounds so fun to me.. what life will be like in the future. All the little details ...How I might style my house...What kind of foods I will have in my pantry...just the lifestyle that I will have! I just wonder wonder wonder.

The best part of it all is feeling so happy and excited thinking about the person that I will marry..I am sure He will be my best friend and my best buddy that I love to spend time with...and go places with. We will talk with each other and laugh with each other and just adore and love each other. I just know I will. That is what I want. And we will buy OUR house..the house that we want...and we will do whatever we want with that house...and we will eat where we want, and cook what we want..shop where want...and just build our life together. Oh, it will be so much fun.

It is kind of scary..in a way, thinking about life being so different from what it is now..but at the same time...not scary at all..Just so exciting and this awesome opportunity to make my life what I want it to be.

We will have our little sweet babies, and we will dress them and teach them how to read and write, and all about the world and God, and everything in life. I want to teach them something new everyday...and at an early age teach them to sew, and sing, and write, and cook, and knit, and garden...and all sorts of things..so that they are smart.

I can picture myself playing outside with my little children...and showing them and teaching them and telling them about grass...and trees, dirt, rocks, the sun and the moon...rollie pollie bugs...and telling them all about the world and earth around us. Oh I will love those sweet children. They will be my whole world.

I wonder how many children I will have, and what I will name them...and what they will be like..maybe they will look like me, or maybe they will look more like my husband.

ah, such wonderful things to think and dream about.

All in the Month Of Love.

Love lives in the sky

2012-02-02T12:55:00.000-08:00

I like this mud room

I remember being in NYC on a day just like this...and getting SOAKED to the bone running back to Best Friend Kate's apartment. One of the best weeks of my life!

I would love to have a work room like this one someday. I could do all sorts of projects for my house and for my family

I love the wood floors..Love the dark wood furniture, book shelves, stools, swing, lanterns...cool feeling.

Pretty freshness to this room....Love the texture from the rug, the fireplace, awesome couch, glass coffee table...anthropologie is a top favorite.

I am craving some delicious Tortilla soup....

and perhaps a homemade enchilada

After the tortilla soup and enchilada settles..I would like to have at least a bite of a mint cupcake.

I am a big mint fan

Beautiful wedding flowers...cute little mint colored macaroons aaaaaaaaaaand My favorite...the invitation. It is funky and different and probably hated by anyone who likes things very traditional and classic.

A perfect looking hammock by anthrpologie ( of course!) I would like this inbetween some big trees somewhere in my future back yard...OR inside?!?!

I love the scent of the Volcano candle

I love the color and the style of these darling shoes

I like oreos...and I believe I would be thoroughly obsessed with these No Bake Oreo Bars

And absolutely anything Smore's....I always love.

Like it

Love it

want some more of it ( yikes, sorry) but for reals...I likedy these thangs

oh happy day

2012-01-28T14:13:00.000-08:00

Meet

Stevens Boy

And my best best family :)

Big brother Trenton

My Sweet Mama

Matthew, Brittney, Halle, Lola

Troy boy

Natalie and Abby

Some random wanted person....

Cade and Natalie

Papa and little brand new halle

Me and my sisters accidentally all in stripes

I was watching some videos of my family today and I thought you might want to see some....

Tueller family dance party....
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150392657310760

Trent
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150133702465760

Troy and I are robots
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150133476195760

If I had words to make a day for you

2012-01-19T15:48:00.000-08:00

I'd sing you a morning, golden and true
I would make this day last for all time
Then fill the night deep in moonshine
If I had words, to make a day for you

I'd give you a morning, Golden and true

I would make this day last for all time

Then fill the night deep with moonshine!

Remember the movie Babe? I don't remember much..but I love this little song...and especially the happy dance this little old man does. Makes you want to be happy eh? eh eh eh?

too long, my friends, I have been away. and there is too much to do, yes, far to much to say..

I moved out! FAR far away into the wonderful land of Rain Tree apartments...I love it here.
Here we are...Missing our fifth, Arianna....Katie Nana, Erin, Maggie, and Me.

Maggie was tying my shoe, but I was loosing balance, so Erin caught me...and Kate snapped the pic all while I was on the phone

We were in a car accident! Poor Katie Nana's BRAND SPanking new car was bashed to smitherines..and she is now in a rental car for another good month or so...

we decided to celebrate our being alive with a delicious lunch at Zupas...with a movie...with a BURGER..from burger supreme ( where the picture was taken) and then a nice countdown dance and hot tub sit..It's good to be alive!

Me and Steven Stucki...silly silly night with Cade and all of the friends over for Cade's story telling of " THE BOODLE"

Feast your eyes on the double bunk being occupied to it's fullest capacity....actually we had three other people on there as well just moments after this was taken...a nice tight squeeze and we were ready for the story of the boodle to begin.

Maggie looks like she has a nice bob hair cut..I am slightly cross-eyed sandwiched between doctor doo little and " gotta use" asian.....little katie nana and cadertot in the back..

There is much more to say and plenty more to share...I need to get the pictures from my friends of the other recent happenings and people that I love and want to show you...I will be back soon!

Love lifts us up where we belong, where eagles fly on a mountain high

2012-01-09T10:06:00.000-08:00

There is so much to say and share, but no time at all today!
I will be sure to post everything that has been happening in the last couple weeks on the morrow.

Until then, enjoy this little guy...One of my top top favorites

One fine day

2011-12-27T20:50:00.000-08:00

One fine day I would like to have a boat..I don't care which kind.

One day I hope I own some pink pants..and this whole outfit.... and look just like this girl :)

One day I might have a pretty house

and maybe I will have some pretty plates on the wall

I would be happy living like this too..

One day a really nice lady came to my door, and gave me this brand new Realer than real bag

One day I might be able to " slide down stairs"

Maybe some parts of my house will look like this...

One day Soon I will make these muffins.
http://acooksquest.blogspot.com/2011/04/102-blueberry-muffins.html#more

And these chocolate chip cookies that are suppose to be devine goodness.http://kelseysappleaday.blogspot.com/2011/08/best-ever-chewy-chocolate-chip-cookies.html

One day I will make this candle holder

and hopefully One day I will learn not to analyze and over analyze everything and then believe everything that I think.

Maybe one day I will hold a party where there is a parachute ceiling

Some days I have been guilty of this embarrassing thing

One day my house could be something like this!!!

One day I will eat delicious fruit out of a cone like this. I like cones.

And I must have a cool wall like this one day.

What if one day I got to stay or even set foot for a couple seconds in a place like this...

One day I hope I can do something like this in my back yard with my friends and neighbors.

ONE DAY...One fine fine day!

Here's the tune

I can run like the wind blows

2011-12-27T11:30:00.000-08:00

One of my favorite movies in the wide world is Forrest Gump.

free bee, free bird

2011-12-25T23:26:00.000-08:00

After a few wonderful days spent with the family at the house ( it felt like we were at home for three days strait...) I am excited to have a new week...with a new work schedule. I feel like I have worked four nights of the week for the last couple of months! I haven't been able to go out to dinner..and just hangout and relax with my family and friends like I normally would when I didn't work so many nights.
This week is going to great though because I get both Monday and Tuesday completely free bee!

The past couple of days have made me feel quite a bit like a big potato or some sort of bump on a log....( It was a wonderful wonderful Christmas..I just haven't been feeling my best physically!)

I feel like all I have eaten is toffee, chocolate, and cheese and crackers for the past few days. I am craving a nice green fresh salad...with some really strong vinegar dressing...and most of all A nice long run..and some type of exercise that really hurts! I dont know, I just need something super fresh stat!!!

Last week my best friend Kate organized this wonderful six course dinner party for our friend Drew who just returned from his mission to Brazil. So we came up with a menu, and Kate cooked all day long while I was at work, so that we could have this delicious feast. I will be sure to post pictures of it soon. The reason why I am bringing this up is because I am craving the salad that we served there.

It was a fresh spring mix, with roasted beets, apple, celery, goat cheese, candied nuts, and a red wine vinegar dressing. It hit the spot. I think I will make it tomorrow.

Recently I have been almost completely obsessed with Beyonce. I have listened to her album 4 way too much. I have always liked some of beyonce's catchy songs, but I have been listening to her more than ever...like song after song on repeat like a psycho crazy person.
Right before I went into complete Beyonce madness and obsession, I Heard a song by this guy named Josh Garrels..who, for some reason, seems to sing directly to a spot inside my heart! I think that compared to Beyonce, his music brought me back to feeling like my old self. ( myself before I became obsessed with beyonce and liked other music too) I have been in a total dreamland :) listening to some of his music. It reminds me of my hippie high school carefree..stringy guitar music days, which I often think of and miss.

Sometimes I feel like my hippie high school days... of long flowing hair, long 70's sun dresses, and barefoot thrift store shopping were some of my favorite days of my life.. Where I was the most ME..or at least, the ME that is somewhere deep inside of me--the parts of me that will always be a part of me...get it?...

My mom always says that I was a little flower child when I was little..playing outside...climbing trees...and always with bare feet and sun dresses. I guess that really is me...and just how I came. This carefree, nature loving, sun and flower child.Who is happy, and silly.

I think you can tell a lot about a person from what they do in their free time...and on a sunny free bee day...I would be found outside somewhere discovering things, making things out of leaves and twigs and flowers, laying out in the sun, picking and eating fresh fruit from a tree, rollerblading to a fruit stand, running, or going on a nice little stroll, playing in water, having a water fight, side walk chalk drawing,doing cart wheels, making little bird feed houses, finding bugs, and so on...
( Maybe that leads on that I am lazy or not a hard worker or something)
but that it is who I am and what I love to do.

It is fun to think that there is probably someone out in the world who is so much like me...just like me in all that they like to do...and maybe we would have the most wonderful, outside adventurous day with each other if we only knew each other! I feel like most of the time, it is me trying to convince my friends that packing up a picnic and riding up the canyon on a tandum bike and spending the day swimming in the river is a really fun and great idea....and making them do things that maybe they just really don't think is all that fun..They may want to take the car instead, or maybe not get in the water because it is way too cold and things.( I would probably be a baby about the cold water in that situation too :) )
I wonder if there is a boy somewhere who would love and appreciate all of that about me, and would want to do all of that with me. ( of course it isn't a necessity to have someone almost exactly like you, who likes to do all of the same things,etc...but is there someone? Where is he and does he want someone who likes to do those things too?) And...is it weird to want someone who loves you for the things that you do everyday even? Someone who will really like that about me? Instead of be bothered, and bored with it all? Someone who will really like that I like to do the things that I like to do...and will LOVE that I like to cook and play outside like a little kid sometimes?

Maybe this is why I have always been attracted to more of a nature type boy...I feel like they feel me on some of my nature loving, care free levels :) ha ha.

The thing is...I know that there are all different sides to a person...they may really love and appreciate the outdoors and nature and wear nothing but super " earthy" and " granola?" looking type clothes..but still also love listening to Beyonce and eating out at fancy restaurants sometimes too right? What would be fun about a person who is only one way/ one style/ one type of person all of the time?
There is something fun and interesting about people because of their individuality.

It is so interesting thinking of the different parts and pieces that make up people..their personalities, their likes, dislikes, hobbies, interests...it is that whole nature and nuture thing that makes them into what they are I suppose. And we are ALL unique...but also alike in many ways.

Haha, I have always wondered if maybe some random person living on the other side of the world, that speaks a different language and lives a completely different life, may be someone that could be my very best friend. Maybe we have the same sense of humor, or we would just understand and get each other if we could only communicate!!

anyway,
I felt like writing some things down tonight and I got a little carried away on about 50 different topics. I think being cooped up in this house has left me filled with a lot of thoughts and things that I haven't really been talking about.

Hope your Christmas was Merry and Bright. Mine was wonderful- I am blessed every year. And I am so grateful for Heavenly Father who sent his Son so that I could possibly make it back to heaven. He is my hope!

The words to some of the Christmas songs we sang today in church brought my little emotional soul to tears like normal :)

dreamer

2011-12-23T23:36:00.000-08:00

I am a dream dream dreamer.

I dream so vividly all night long, every night...rarely do I forget what I dreamed.

Some of my dreams are scary.

Some of my dreams are sweet.

Some of my dreams are weird.

Some of my dreams are funny.

Some of my dreams are a funky combination.

Sometimes I dream of Seven peaks water park...but whenever I do, it always looks the same..but it doesn't look like the real seven peaks.

Sometimes I dream that I am snuggling with a cute boy that I like and I wake up to find that I am snuggling up with my little sister.( whom I sleep with on occasion..)

Sometimes I kiss random scary strangers/ men in my dreams- I would categorize those dreams as weird.

Sometimes I dream that I fly..but by the end of the dream..I can't fly anymore. It's like I know that If I am flying..I must be in a dream, and then I stop believing that I can fly. So I can't.
Sometimes my dream bothers me so much that I feel weird for a while after waking up.

Sometimes I wake myself up from scary dreams, because I just can't stand how scary they are.

Sometimes I laugh in my sleep

I always sleep talk.

but I don't only dream in the night time..I dream all the day long!

A lot of times I dream about " What ifs" and I laugh out at the day dream of someone flying across the room- or something strange like that.

Sometimes I dream about the future

Sometimes I dream about what might happen later that day when I see my crush

Sometimes I feel dreamy while I listen to music that takes me to a different dream world

Sometimes I day dream that I am an important character in a movie as I run daily errands and walk around at school.

Sometimes I dream of the past...past friends, past relationships, experiences, random days and things I did when I was a little girl
Sometimes I dream about what life after this earth life will be like
Sometimes I dream about my future children
Sometimes I dream about my future Husband :)
Sometimes I dream about things I day dream about things I don't want to happen
other times I dream of things that I really really want to have happen

I dream and I dream and I dream dream dream dream.

I am a genuine dream·er
noun

a person who dreams.

a person who lives in a world of fantasy; one who is impractical and unrealistic.

3. a person whose ideas or projects are considered audacious or highly speculative; visionary

Getting it together!

2011-12-15T12:42:00.000-08:00

I have been away for far too long! In a world filled of bad sleeping habits, eating habits, and terrible exercising habits!
It is time for a little change to occur! I can see the organization of my life falling apart right before my eyes!

Tonight I am going to bed at 10:30. Right after I get off work and clean up my bedroom. I am telling YOU this, because if I don't make some sort of promise to someone about it- it will probably never happen!
Then I am going to wake up at 8:30..which is a lot of sleep- but I do need to catch up a little bit.Which makes plenty of time for reading, running, eating healthful foods at normal hours,cleaning my room, doing my laundry, christmas shopping, and getting things DONE!

Now for the norm....

I like this cottage feel

but I also love this house with a big wrap around porch, and really big trees

pretty flowers

cool ring

awesome chandelier DIY

I plan on definitely doing some walls with a cool stencil pattern like this in my future hogan

THIS is my favorite flower. And I don't even know the name of it!

Cool cork project idear

What if you really could live in a place like this^^^ A little getaway

I really like this^ It works!

Baby polar bear?

One of my favorite movies, MY GIRL. I cry every time without fail!

what if I could have this dress in real life?

made these ^ little caprese bites before...they be good.

DIY...I really like the yellow paint, and the glass cabinets!

The happy girl

2011-12-07T14:13:00.000-08:00

I am the little happy girl in this picture.

I have always been a happy person...Of course everyone is sad sometimes. Because sad things do happen...but, I never stay sad for long. Because I love to be happy.

Somedays it seems like I have to choose to be happy...but it isn't too long until I really am genuinely happy again. I love how that works.

I admire people who have had hard things happen to them in their lives...and they are still happy! People who have tragic things happen to them...and they do the most wonderful and miraculous things despite their situation...

What miraculous people! They know what life is really about! I love those sweet sweet people.

They are some how able to bring up their spirits and look on the bright side,and make the best of their situation. They know that sad times and hard things are only temporary..and if we make the best of what we have and what happens to us, we can still happy, and everything will be made well one day! better than well even. What a sweet thought..and what a hope! What examples to the rest of the world!

I have so much to be happy about!

I am happy. 

love like yours will surely come my way, a hey, A hey hey!

2011-12-02T12:17:00.000-08:00

One of my very favorite stores is Anthropologie... There clothing is SO detailed and unique..but also very expensive! In highs school I used to get ideas from anthropologie and make my own version. My mom and I would go to savers or DI and buy some sweaters and things, and then change them up and so funky things to them to make them into anthropologie look a likes. My mom is an excellent seamstress. She is also a pattern/ fabric designer..So she is good at this stuff :) Here are some of my favorites from anthro right now...

I really like peppermint....candycanes...ice cream...cookies...whatever it be. And so I am excited to try these peppermint christmas cookies!

Love the bright green wall here....

Awesome little reading nook. And great book shelves.

DIY....I could make some pretty funky and cool lamp shades using this idea..

Guatemala....wow!

I always post closets....but I think this may be one of my favorites! Maybe because I like the look of some of the clothes that are in there...

Awesome floor idea...

Pear cookie jar... I have this thing with pears. I painted quite a few pairs in my high school painting class. I just like them.

I really like the idea of Big thick stripes on the ceiling.

Once upon a time in my life, I didn't like smores at all. I only ate them because they were part of a campfire experience...BUT...the wind must have changed this past summer..because all of a sudden I became a smores fanatic... I want to whip these up after work tonight!

LOVE the big thick wooden floor... and the rustic feel to this...
I really like the rustic style and dark wood with Bold bright colored walls. It is a really cool look....I will try to find an example and post it soon.

another smores idea...scrumdidiliumptious

another nook..that I might like more with the big window...

True true thing.........

Cheddar, apple, spinach grilled cheese....I am a big apple and cheese fan...if you think it sounds weird- the joke is on you!

2011-12-01T02:06:00.000-08:00

What do you think about a plain white room...it looks really relaxing and fresh to me. I think It would be nice to have a room like this.

Look at this miraculous and amazing thing...What would you give?!

...and these brownies...I love coconut everything..these look too good to be true for me....

Little baby twins..The little girl on the the left wasn't going to survive, when they layed her down next to her twin brother, he put his arm over her, and her temperature rose, her little heart beat stabilized, and she survived. Isn't that sweet? We can surely learn a lesson from that! Showing love and support, by giving just a little hug or by putting your arm around someone can truly lift their spirits and help them in many ways! What a little love can do.

I will make something like this for something..somtime.

How cool would it be to have something like this to lounge in?

I cannot IMAGINE what it would be like to live in a place like this. THIS is my dream. I would love it.

This looks like a beautiful wedding dinner/ reception idea

spain

Greece never ceases to amaze me

I have always loved this picture.

This breathtaking waterfall is in alto parana in Brazil

Wouldnt it be nice to take a little bath in something like this?

and then fall asleep in this wonderland

Delicious zucchini idea

Booties that I will make for my little children

Beautiful France.

and a bright happy colored door.

2011-11-30T00:07:00.000-08:00

the fox and the hound... What a good movie- I think, at least.

This clip is well worth watching for a few reasons...first, when copper introduces himself and says " Imma Hound dog! " and the voice of the owl!

be happy anyway

2011-11-28T17:55:00.000-08:00

Kate Clark, me best friend and the girl of the hour! Check out her blog..I was lucky to be a guest and write a few things that I love about her.http://be-happy-anyway.blogspot.com/

2011-11-25T01:25:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep and I can't not write down what I am feeling ....what I have been feeling for the past couple weeks, in every quiet time that I have with myself..and even during the loud times when I am with a large group of people..this feeling that will not seem to leave me alone!!!.. This feeling just turning and twisting inside of me.
Though I don't know if turning and twisting are the best words to describe the feeling that I have inside right now.
more like...stirring inside of me. Stirring softly and gently, nevertheless stirring! And growing, and I can feel it raising up inside of me, up inside of my heart..beating, and beating. Beating fast..but also slow and steady, and sweetly...It makes me feel calm and whole, but at the same time...I feel excited, and kind of anxious...And more than anything, HOPEFUL.

This feeling is almost like a dream! It is just so hopeful and it is probably a feeling I should do my best to push away and try to ignore ( out of fear)....It is funny---I can't help but listen to songs that don't do anything but make this feeling stir and stir...
because I like to dream..I like to FEEL...and I love the feeling of hoping, but not fully knowing that the feeling I have inside of me (that is just longing for some sort of satisfaction) is one that will ever get the satisfaction it is looking for! If it is just an unrealistic feeling and longing inside that cannot be satisfied....
but... my heart feels stronger and more hopeful then being truly afraid of that, and my mind tells me that even though it may seem unrealistic, if may be very possible and it may be real and it may be a feeling that I should allow to steer me in the direction it wants to!

This feeling is like nostalgia but, more of sentimental or wistful yearning for the happiness and incredible love and bliss that in the future could possibly be felt and shared with someone else. The kind of love that I want, and the kind of love that I believe that I need. The kind of love that I want to give and have. One that Is worth waiting for, and doing everything - making every decision I can- to lead me to that kind of love...although- I don't believe it is one that I really lead myself to, necessarily. My little smidge of superstition and surely my Faith lead me to believe that it will be much more fateful and "meant to be" than that.

Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who thinks in this type of way and feels these kinds of feelings...and I am explaining all of this in sort of a dramatic sounding way...but It is more simple than I think it coming across in this description. But I think part of this hope that I feel..is to find someone who will feel this sort of stirring in their hearts for me, too.

If a sky can be so perfectly baby blue, and clouds can turn pink like cotton candy, then that kind of love most be possible too..right? :)

I am grateful to live on such a beautiful and magnificent earth...

2011-11-24T01:56:00.000-08:00

2011-11-23T10:40:00.000-08:00

It is incredible how music can just turn your emotions like almost nothing else...
Music. I love music. It is so beautiful and so wonderful. I am grateful for music.
I almost feel like I have some special connection and deep relationship with music, because I am on this deep emotional level with it!

The new Twilight movie came out...and I know so many people don't like those movies or books at all...And I will say that I think that most of the movies have been laughable in many ways...But..I have always liked the music in the movies..and I especially liked the music in the newest movie.
I want to share some of the songs...BUT I feel a little anxious about it because I can't find any of the songs on youtube without there being a Twilight video with the song....
Will you listen to them anyway? Even if you hate Twilight?

They are pretty songs, I think.

Here they are. You don't have to watch the video, Just listen, if you want! I hope you like it.

gone like some forgotten dreams

2011-11-22T12:32:00.000-08:00

John lennon has been on my mind, because last night I wore some glasses that were the little colorful circle hippie john lennon kind.

I love the song Real love by John Lennon. I like the words. I am a word person...what does it mean to be a word person? It means that I love words..I pay attention to words..I appreciate thoughtful words, beautiful words...I am hurt by harmful words, and I think you have to be really careful about what words you choose to say to about a person, and to a person. Choose your words wisely!
I really love poetry because I love words.
I really love music with good lyrics.

So here is Real Love...by John Lennon and just for fun the Regina Spektor version...She is a cutie in this video. And last but not least " In my life" by the beatles because I love the words.

Snozzberry!! Who's ever heard of a snozzberry?!

2011-11-20T01:00:00.000-08:00

I am a big dummy for being up this late,because I can just feel a sickness coming on. Too many late nights! And I am a firm believer in the idea that no matter how long you sleep in, you will not be to your full potential if you have stayed up too late.
Early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy wealthy and wise. Is that true, is the real question?! I think it very well may be.
The other real question is, if that is true, then is the exact opposite of that saying true as well? If you don't get to bed early, and you wake up late..will you be unhealthy, unwealthy, and not wise in the least? - I hope not. Though I plan to change my ways, Immediately! ( easier said than done) Because here I am, up late...doing things that don't need to be done right now...
anyway, I have been dying to share a few things that I saw and liked...here we go....

Having open shelves like this might be okay if you stored things in cute little baskets..

My Best friend Kate was trotting down and around and through little streets in This little beauty in Cinque Terra Italy....Can you believe that place? I mean, Beeeautiful little dreamy place. What would I give to live somewhere such as this....

I never look at wedding rings. ( period) but when I stumble upon one, and I like it, I never look at it with any type of hope or desire to have it...because The money never ever seems worth it to me- ever! But what a pretty ring this is....so so pretty and different band that I have ever seen.

I really like these book shelves...I like that they are in a corner of the room too...It is useful.

Once again, the pained window door in the house...I just like it.

So this is a hotel in Dubai...pretty good pleading eh? Could you sleep in there even? It is awesome, But I think I wouldnt be able to sleep,,,Especially if a shark was constantly swimming by.

Pretty and beautiful and green party idea/ wedding idea setting

These are prepaid preplanned dates put in little envelopes for each month of the year....I think this is a very clever and thoughtful gift that one may want to give a wife/ husband/ loved one of any sort!

I really like the built in bed here. The one thing that I am torn about is the window..I feel like I am often paranoid, like a small child, that someone is going to snatch me out of the window..and this window is so convenient for any snatcher who may be planning a snatch.....but I like that this window too...If those are glass doors, cool, if they are mirror doors, awesome.

Want to do a little christmas crafty craft?
Buy the plain glass ornaments...
poor acrylic paint inside.. as many colors as you want..and swirl around! I am not sure if you have to bake them or not....You do have to bake glass jars when you paint them ...but what about glass ornaments? too fragile?

I am a HUGE wall paper fan. and I just like this laundry room...BUT I dont know if I would like the wallpaper half as much, if the floor wasn't black and white.

Cool art idea. I like doing things like this with little kids when I baby sit. Maybe I will try this out on Troy. Are there any leaves that aren't dead yet?

I must knit/crochet this for my child one day. What a cute little thing.

I really really like this ring. I would like one of my own.

Why didn't I think of this.....a GREAT way to store your boots.

See...This is why I have always wanted to travel to Greece. Santorini is a dreamland

I like this, because I know that it is true!

The good/ fresh/healthy feeling after working out is well worth it....

I just can;t seem to tell myself that enough some lazy days.

Have you seen this craft? It's pretty cool, I think ...and I think there are many more cool things you could do with this idea.

I feel like I need to be trotting down this wee little street

and last but not least, another ring that I saw, and I liked...and I will never expect to have.Nonetheless, a pretty thing. I actually really like the ring underneath the big diamond. That's the one I am talking about. I like.

who can take a rainbow, wrap it in a sigh, soak it in the sun and make a strawberry-lemon pie

2011-11-18T12:32:00.000-08:00

I once had the best Mexican Wedding Cookie recipe in the world. I lost the recipe, and I can't get it back because the girl that I got the recipe from is serving a mission right now! So I spent a long while searching for recipes on the internet, trying to find the most similar recipe to the one I had...but they all seem to have too much flour- and they look really hard and crusty in the pictures. The mexican wedding cookie recipe I had was PERFECT and melted in your mouth like nothing you've ever had..it was DELICIOUS. So I failed to find any recipe that looked as good...and I will just have to wait until the missionary girl returns home to ask her for the recipe! If you have a good Mexican Wedding Cookie Recipe let me know!

A couple years ago my friend had a rug in her apartment that I loved. It was funky and looked handmade.. she said she got it in Figi. I have wanted to make my own handmade rug since, and so today I finally looked up some ways to make your own homemade rug. Here are some ideas...

This is a Free People rug. Isn't it awesome? I guess Free People did a giveaway and someone got to take this rug home...and the display artist that originally created it decided to make a tutorial for the people who didn't win.
http://blog.freepeople.com/2011/05/wednes-diy-68/

This is a T-shirt rug...Which I think has a cool look to it. You could do all different colors...whatever you'd like!
http://xoelle.com/2009/05/t-shirt-latch-hook-rug-tutorial/

This is a Hula Hoop rug. I think this looks like an awesome idea too...only how do you make a big big big hula hoop rug?
http://familyfun.go.com/crafts/hula-hoop-rug-995304/print/

Paint on your rug....http://walldecorsource.com/what-is-chevron-and-how-to-add-some-to-your-home/

I love colored glass. My grandma is a green glass collector...and she has tons..and TONS of green glass...I just love it. ( Green is my favorite color)...But I also LOVE blue.Look at this little tutorial on how to make your plain glass jars into blue glass jars...

http://www.notjustahousewife.net/2011/09/make-blue-jars.html

you you you you send me

2011-11-17T11:34:00.000-08:00

Sam Cooke...that man just sings strait to my heart! His love songs are some of my most favorites. And this one..." You send me" Is a top top favorite love song. Try it out!

Look at that little tiny sweet owl. Is there anyway that that is really real? I had no idea baby owls were so small.

I used to have an awesome button collection, a lot like this one. But I think it got ransacked by family members and for little sewing projects.

Witnessing this in real life would have just been incredible. How beautiful.

Do you like tootsie rolls? I like them a lot, I know they are waxie... But I like that waxie texture. I have always like the vanilla ones the most.

When I was a little girl I always thought that if I was an animal, that I would be a pig..because my name started with a "P". And on the first day of first grade my teacher put little paper sack puppets on everyones desks, and I got a little pig paper sack puppet. I think I was always sad about it though, because being called a pig isn't a positive thing...This little pig looks so sweet though!

This is a little feta, cheddar, spinach muffin. It sounds delicious to me.

sweet little pictures

This is an awesome idea! I have never seen this before! I am going to try it out.

Black bean and vegetable wrap, that I want to make.

This was one of my favorite Dr. Suess books. It is inspiring in a light hearted and poetic way! My friend gave it to me in junior high school as a christmas gift, if I remember right. And I just love it. I love Dr. Suess.

I like this bench...and I just like this picture. What a cute little boy. I would like to have a bench like this in my future house one day. and coat rack and pictures and so on

Grilled Mozzarella sammy...looks like there is some sprouts, toms, and maybe some pesto delciousness in there too.

Check out that floor! I don't know if I would ever really have something that crazy on my floor...but It might be kind of fun to have it in one little bathroom...the rainbow bathroom, you might call it.

I am not a huge pancake fan...infact, I usually never have pancakes..even when they are the option. I do, however like german pancakes/ popeye pancakes etc...But I just never am a fan of a plain white pancake. I like really good wholegrain and wheat ones, sometimes. And I like the idea of this pancake...a lemon poppyseed pancake with tons of delicious fresh ripe strawberries on the top.
I may even try just a Almond Poppyseed pancake sometime. I love almond.

I am not a car person...
if you saw my car, you would believe me.
It is old and crappy and has problems up the ying yang...but i love it, I will be sad when It is gone. Because it's mine.
the last car I would ever want is some new really expensive cool car. I just don't deserve it- because I really don't care about it at all.
But this car ^^^^ I like. I like the red..but I think I would also like the aqua blue color you often see these old fashioned cars in. It would also be nice if it was a convertible.
Imagine going to the drive in, or just driving down university avenue in the fifties in this little car! ;) You'd be the bees knees and the cat's meow in this little car.

AAand...here is another little doo bopper bee bopper song for you to sing

Why do birds sing so gay?

2011-11-16T14:19:00.000-08:00

One of my favorite things is to listen to great old fashioned music while I cook in the kitchen. I like to dance around while I cook, and sing, and pretend to myself that I'm living in the fifties...

I just love old music. I have this passion for it that is hard to express fully! And I feel like I can't explain to people how much I love it or what it does for me to listen to it! I just feel happy and it just touches my old soul!

a couple of my favorites from Frankie Lymon and the teenagers... I will show you more later!

GRUBBERY

2011-11-14T14:35:00.000-08:00

I ate a little scrumptious lunch today..it was so good because we got this new cheese from Costco...I don't know if it's new to costco- it's just new to my family-
creamy gorgonzola....it is like heaven to my taste buds- just such good flavor.

Today I had some kale chips for lunch with some fresh sliced tomato, with some ground pepper and some gorgonzola cheese on top. It was also delicious with a little triscuit cracker.
and I ate it atop of my favorite mexicana plates that my dear mother brought back from my native land....

I'm in a food mood right now...so I will share some of my favorite little go to snacks and quick foods I make at home often.....

1. Just good plain old Black beans- I think they are seriously my number one. They are so good, and good for you.
2. Asian pears and almond butter....have you had this before? If not, and if it sounds weird or gross to you- the joke, I'm sorry to say, is completely on you. This little snackeroo is one that my friends and I used to lay on our apartment floor and eat for hours while we talked...It is so good.
3. Apple and cheese/ crackers and cheese....I think this may be one of the most underrated snacks of all time.
4. Toast on this bread http://www.daveskillerbread.com/
and a little butter or olive oil if you're a scaredy cat--Have you ever had olive oil on some toast? I love it. Just a little bit
5. Same toast except replace the EVOO with some almond butter- banana slices and honey- YOU'll thank me for this one!
6. Diced Tomatos, cilantro, goat cheese, ground pepper, and balsamic vinegar- you can eat it plain--but It is really good on a tortilla chip.
8. CABO chips http://www.cabochips.com/ and Guac ( my way) Just some avocados, salt n pepa , and a good amount of fresh lime. - No toms or onions or garlic or anything else- I like mine really really simple, but very fresh!
9. Cabo chips with blackbeans, toms, and cottage cheese combo
10. Turkey and cheese roll up----Deli Meat--I am really picky about lunch meet for some reason...I don't like super thin sliced stuff...and I like to get it freshly sliced from a deli. and some fresh sliced cheese of your choice too. I really like boars head chicken breast and low sodium turkey...with some muenster or Havarti with jalapenos ...roll up the turkey and the cheese and eat plain and cold---OR put on some spicy mustard, and Sometimes I like it heated up in the microwave... OOOR if you want to be really cool you can put some tomato and some fresh basil in their as well.
11. Last but not least.....Dave's bread with a little light light mayo spread on there...( I do NOT like Mayo at all...but when making this sandwich, I always use a little bit, low fat of course, even though Mayo is pure lard anyway) fresh sliced tomato....and any kind of cheese on top... broil in the oven until nice and toasty with some bubbly cheese. I like to add some fresh basil when I eat mine..and maybe even eat it with some some balsamic vinegar if I'm in the mood.

extra funny things I thought about while writing that list:

- I am super picky when it comes to grocery stores! In our town, My favorite is Harmon's and the Sunflower market...Of course the other health food stores are great...But Harmon's is just an awesome normal grocery store. I just can't stand Smith's for some reason...I feel like the diapers are in the far back left corner with the milk.. and there is just this dark and dreary sad feeling in there...I feel like the bakery is nay nay and I may get murdered in a back isle with a flickering florescent light above. Yikes!
- I have a hard time with meat that is not freshly sliced at the deli. Something about prepackaged really thinly sliced turkey weirds me out..and it's always in a weird airtight container or plastic sack or something. It bothers me.

People always ask me what my LEAST favorite foods are...and I always act like I like everything - because for the most part, I do...but there are a few things that I do not like...They are:

- MAPLE....maple anything where I can taste a strong maple flavor. ESPECIALLY maple syrup...why would anyone want to start their day off with a heavy thick carb load pancake and some sticky maple sugar syrup on top just to glaze it to the sides of your stomach I like something fresh and light and energizing in the morning. BUT I can handle some PURE maple syrup on occasion
- I don't really like dried fruit. There are a few exceptions...I like banana chips, and sometimes mangoes.
- I do not like Mayo....I feel like just the sound it makes when you stir it around is enough of a good reason to not like it. BUT I will say, that I do like a few things that have mayo in them- a lot of great salad dressings have mayo..BUt for the most part- I don't like it at all!
- Lastly---TUNA...most of the time, I do not like it because of the smell...but sometimes I am randomly in the mood for a tuna sandwich--but it has to be one some toasted bread, and it has to have a lot of vegetables and a good pickle on there too.

I'm a baby

2011-11-10T14:48:00.000-08:00

sometimes. Sometimes I cry over silly things, like a grandma...we've been over this.

But there is a song that gets me almost every single time!
Because I just really love life..it is just precious and sweet and beautiful.
anyway, this song has always hit me hard right in the heart! and I haven't heard it for a while...I listened to it today and it hit me hard like it always does!

I don't know about the music video, I have never watched it....But the song is sweet.

and..if you haven't seen this Music video..you are in for a treat! I think this is the coolest music video I have ever seen...wow a lot of work went into it..and it is just awesome. Check it out yo

They say when you meet the love of your life time stops. And that's true

2011-11-08T13:35:00.000-08:00

Have you seen BIG FISH?
It is one of my most favorite movies. I just love it. It is kinda weird..kind of different, but that is exactly what I like most of the time! My friend posted a video the other day, and I wanted to post it too because it is one of my favorite scenes in the movie, and It is about LOVE.
What Edward Bloom did for LOVE. He took some chances, made sacrafices, was persistent, and just didn't give up when discouraged! What a thing. You gotta watch them. Here are some of my favorite scenes....You gotta watch them!

I'm a champion

2011-11-07T20:11:00.000-08:00

Because today I overcame one of my biggest fears....SPIDERS

.some of you may laugh ( laugh aaaall you want) because " we are so much bigger than spiders" OR whatever you may think...but spiders are a real deal fear for me..I am honestly scared of them..and I think I have maybe only killed two in my life...I wish that was because I hated killing living things and I like to set them free out into the wild...and truthfully...I do feel that way with all other living things...BUT spiders.....spiders I would only set free if I had an hour or two to drive up to the mountains and drop them off somewhere far where I knew they wouldn't just come crawling right back into my house..and down the stairs to my room...where they LOVE to gather and hangout and scare me. I have killed two...and latest one was killed by me, when I threw a pumpkin smack dab on top of it from 10 feet away...it was a total goner! I felt bad though, and I may have left the remnents of the dead spider smashed on the side of the pumpkin for someone else to deal with.

Confession: I haven't slept in my own bed in my basement bedroom for over a month now..Why? Well because It has a bunch of clothes on it--but besides that, and the main reason, is because I know for a fact that there are about 10 spiders living within the clothing and blankets at this point...and natually I am procrastinating cleaning my room because I am scared of the spiders that I KNOW will come after me when I am down there. I mean, there is a whole side of my room that I avoid, because there are very high chances that spiders are camping out in that area.

I went on a vacation once...came home. and counted, with my papa as a witness, 8 SPIDERS..just taking over my bedroom. The worst is when they come down on me when I am in the shower....The most vulnerable time for me, when I am in the nude and there is nowhere for me to escape or I am mid shampoo/conditioning/ mid shave....It's the worst!

SO..I am scared of spiders, okay. They freak me out- and I don't care if they are way smaller than me or not...that makes it even worse..They can crawl on me or be in my hair without me even knowing.

I think I freaked myself out even more when I was in highschool and looked up " brown recluse spider bites" on the computer ..just for fun...I saw the most horrid terrible things....TRy it out for yourself and reap the bitter consquences ... YOu'll feel the creepy crawlies all over you!

( and while you are at it. look up " shark bite victims"...WARNING: the pictures on this site are extremely scary and graphic and yucky...I don't know why and how I handled looking at them...but if you have the guts..check it out http://www.sharkattacks.com/bites.htm)( This is the kind of stuff my friends and I looked up on the internet in highschool...disgusting and terrible and scary)

ANYWAY- the point of all of this, is to tell YOU, whoever you are ;) that today I, Paige Tueller...conquered a fear! One of my biggest and dumbest fears. And guess what?
I felt so good after. I felt free! I felt like...I want to do something like this everyday...and that I can do things that are hard and difficult for me, that I am scared of....and it really won't even be that bad.

Here I am!!!...Look at me..holding a giant spider! Little brother Troy was so awesome he gave me all the support I needed...he called me a wuss a few times..and that made me want to hold it even more...

Here is the bloody old thing itself!...I actually grew to kinda like it. It walked soft and sweet into my hands..

And the tough boy Troy holding the spider before I did...He's awesome.

Now for sky diving, singing in public to a crowd, and going through child labor!!! ;)

It's 2 a.m. and here I am!

2011-11-07T00:46:00.000-08:00

I have never really thought about the reason that I blog. I know that I don't have anything very important to say to anyone who may be reading this.I know that usually I am either going off about something I have been thinking about recently or sharing some little love song that I like or posting pictures that I find and like. And I am sure that the 4.323 people that read my blog every 6 months or so would agree that my blog is a little homeless compared to some of the awesome blogs that people have going on...seriously I am impressed by how fancy and cool some blogs are..and how funny and clever and awesome people are..I don't know how they do it sometimes! I am amazed by the creativity that people have. what a thing.
...Actually, can I explain a thing or two?
To be completely honest..I have absolutely no idea how to even really work this blog designing thing. I can't figure out how people have these awesome blog layouts and titles and style everything just how they like. I don't know technology stuff like that..I never have. That's one reason why my blog is the way that it is. I've messed around with the design of it way too much- and It never comes out normal because I just down right don't know a thing about how it works.
BUT
I think that I am an artistic and creative person. I have ideas, I have a mind and an imagination that is 98% of the time filled with deep and magical thoughts of things that are idealistic ..I feel like I often times live in a little dream world of my own...and I just LOVE so many things...I love art, I love music,I love words, I love thinking, I love praying, I love telling someone that will listen to me, and that cares about me, how I feel and what I think about everything, and I love them to tell me too. I love being happy, I love being good, I love being silly, I love to Laugh more than I don't even know what. And I love to share all of this with people that I love. Sometimes I get kind of anxious and nervous feeling like there is absolutely no way that I can explain the things that I think and dream about to other people...There is no way they can REALLY understand, I often feel, because they can't see what I see in my mind, and they don't think the way I think, they aren't as weird and silly and dreamy....and so on and so forth.
I really love when I find someone that is similar tome in this way, someone who understands this..someone who understands and also lives in a dreamworld a lot of the time..someone who feels like I do, deeply about things, and who knows what I mean when I say I wish I was an elf or a fairy or that I wish goblins were real and that I would probably choose the phantom over raulph or whatever his name is..rudolph, probably ! ;) Someone who can laugh with me about things, and gets me and understands all of that. I love those people. Those people are just awesome.
anyway- This has gone on way to long and far, when really I just wanted to tell you, whoever you are, reading this, that the reason that I do this blogging that I do.....I think it is mainly for me.
Is that way too selfish that you can hardly stand it?
I don't mean for it to be
but truthfully thinking about it, I feel like it is this creative outlet for me...This way for me to share some of the things that are constantly stirring around inside of me....I can tell YOU..whoever you are, whatever I want, I can show you my favorite songs, and show you the things I like..and If you decide you care or want to read, you can. But I just enjoy being able to share it. I think it is kind of therapeutic for me, actually.

The other day I had a friend ask me why I blog. That made me feel really good..that he cared to ask me about that. I was a little nervous to answer, because I have never been asked before, and truthfully, I have never really thought about it, and I didn't want to give a dumb answer...But it made me feel really good that he cared to ask me. I am sure I am over doing this, because the question may have been a test in someway haha..maybe to see if I just blog for attention, or whatever...but I sincerely felt good inside that this boy would ask me about that.

and I wanted to say Thanks for reading my blog, YOU..whoever you are. Thank you. Thank you for reading my blog and making me feel good.

( do you know that song? All i wanna do is to thank you, even though I don't know who you are""...)

and now for just a few little goodies...

I thought his was a clever idea..little lightbulb vases..like little ornaments hanging from a tree

This is why green is my favorite color

This is butternut squash, sweet potato, whole wheat pasta lasagna..I think it sounds fantastic.

I was so happy to stumble upon this little guy^^^^^ That has got to be one of my most favorite things in the world....have you ever had that? You are laughing so hard while telling a story, that you can't even say the last word or the end of the sentence because it is just too funny to even say? and maybe some of your other friends are there laughing too, and finally, when you barely screech the word out, the other people drop to the floor laughing so hard, and it is just the most fun, happy feeling.
Laughing is honestly the sweetest best medicine.

and last but not least...I really really love the glass panes in these closet doors.

Birds flying high, you know how I feel

2011-11-05T11:02:00.000-07:00

I am an old soul, and I love the old sound. And so naturally I enjoy listening and watching Michael Buble with his charming and luring ways! I just love his voice.
My most favorite and recent song of his..is a christmas song.. Have you heard it yet? His own little rendition of " all I want for christmas is you" .
I really really like it.

Do you like Michael the Buble? Some of my other top top favorites by him are ...in no particular order ;)

I'm feeling good
home
save the last dance for me
You don't know me
end of may
crazy love
everything- a course- a course, although I got really sick of it for a while
lost
quando quando quando
you and I
always on my mind

And I could go on!

If a man sang me a love song and had Michael Buble's voice..I would be sold!

para para paradise

2011-11-04T13:48:00.000-07:00

Have you listened to Coldplay's new song Paradise?

That song makes me just want to soar up through the sky and through the clouds..or something! I just love it. I love that feeling it gives me.

I am a lover of music. I probably listen to it way too much. I just love lyrics, I love words, I love how music makes me so emotional. If I want to be happy, a lot of times all I have to do is listen to a light happy summery song to help bring the smile back to my face. If I am sad, and I kind of feel like dwelling in my sadness, then I will listen to songs about heartbreak and become even more sad and more sorry for myself.

When I listen to the National Anthem, and listen to the words, I can't not cry! ( Kind of silly emotional woman thing to do)

Certain songs bring back so many memories and take me back to certain times of my life...and I love that! I love that I have this miraculous mind that can bring back those memories and for just a little bit I can relive that time in a sense. Sometimes it is sort of heatbreaking when those memories come and you realize that you won't ever really be living that time again...and sometimes maybe songs remind you of times of your life that you would rather not remember...But I still think it is miraculous that our brains do that.

This is a weird random story to bring up right now, but my mind just remembered it ...

This one day I was on the tredmill running like crazy while watching " a baby story" on the tele....I remember that It was toward the end of my run and I was feeling really tired and kinda delirious as I was trying to make it through the last mile or so... and it just so happened that the woman on the show was in labor at that exact moment, pushing and fighting to have her baby....Looking back this is a pretty embarrassing story, because I remember as I was running and feeling like I was going to fall over at any moment , It kind of helped to have the woman on the screen going through pain and struggling.....I think I MIGHT MAYBE MAy have imagined that I was in labor too FOR A SECOND...It was honestly a pretty emotional experience for the both of us hahah...and...when the woman finally has her baby, she cried....AND I CRIED...while running on the tredmill, and pretending like I just went through labor and had a baby.

Do you think I am weird after that story? Haha. I realized halfway through that it was actually pretty embarrassing to do something like that... It is pretty funny actually.

Which reminds me,

Have you ever thought of your future children and just felt so much love in your heart for them?
It is funny, I remember one experience when I was talking to a friend, and thinking about my future, and that one day I would actually have my own children...I cannot believe that that is actually possible for me! It is actually kind of a scary thought...but also just so miraculous and awesome.

I rubbed my tummy a little bit and of course I started to cry! Just the thought of my sweet little babies that I will one day have...ah, what a sweet dear thought to me. I already love my sweet babies.

I have been reading this book that my friend Logan Wilding lended to me about a century and a half ago..I hadn't started to read it until just recently. At first I was REALLY weirded out and was laughing at most of the things I was reading... the book is called PEACE IS EVERY STEP...the path of mindfulness in everyday life.

It is sort of this hippie type book...( the perfect book for me...) and I have grown to love it...and now I want to start doing positive affirmations like I did in highschool. and Meditate and so on. Actually they talk about having a " breathing room" in your house..which I actually think would be awesome to have...although I know some people may think that is a little weird.

I really want to tell you about some of the things that I have been reading..because I really like them..But I need to get going to work, so I will just leave you with a little tiny tidbit, if you don't mind...

" THE SOURCE OF A TRUE SMILE IS AN AWAKENED MIND"

" SMILING HELPS YOU APPROACH THE DAY WITH GENTLENESS AND UNDERSTANDING"

AND a little poem that I will explain more later....

I have lost my smile,

but don't worry,

The dandelion has it.

2011-11-02T15:58:00.000-07:00

I feel in the mood to just sit down and write a nice long post...but I'm late, I'm late for a very important date, and so I am just going to leave you with my newest favorite song, thanks to a sweet friend who showed it to me.

Have you heard it yet?
Do you like the video?
I loved it.

The beginning reminds me of LEGEND --if you have ever seen that movie...

Brandon Flowers is quite the charming man...he has a great smile. and an adorable last name.
He is the lead singer of the killers...and he is mormon. Cool guy

Thursday with Troy

2011-10-27T14:19:00.000-07:00

My wonderful and talented mother is off for the next 5 days or so at a Fabric show...She is a fabric designer...You should look at her blog.... Lilatuellerdesigns.blogspot.com. She is so talented.

While she is away I am in charge of the little chitlins at the hogan....well, me and papa bear.
It is always a very funny time when I am in charge of babysitting Troy Tueller, my little 9 year old brother, a boy with a mind of his own like none other...Actually, I shouldn't say mind of his own. This boy quotes movies and television like there is no tomorrow..infact, I would say about 80% of the things He says he gets from TV or movies. You would not believe some of the things that come out of that boys mouth. EVERYTIME I talk to him...there is something funny that he says.
For instance...a couple days ago I woke up and had to hop in the car to run errands with my family and I was in a pair of my younger sister Natalie's gym shorts and an Orem High sweatshirt. I hopped in the car, looking like a ragmuffin..and troy greets me with..." Paige...the sweatshirt- Okay I can handle it- But the shorts---not so much--( doing the cut throat motion with his hands)".

On that same car ride, after I pointed out that he had a good amount of hair on his legs for his age...He replied with " It's like wolverine...That's why I'm being wolverine for christmas...That's cause I was raised by a pack of wolverines..."

On another occasion he told me that If I wanted guys to think i was " HOT" I needed to wear my hair down, and make sure it was pulled infront of my shoulders..and if I wear it up, no one will think I am hot"".

Today while making lunch for him...I was stirring up some homemade chocolate milk in a short glass while he dug through a kitchen drawer and found a straw, He told me he wanted me to put the milk into a bigger glass to that he could use a straw for the first time at his house....I told him that I didn't want to dirty another cup, and that I would cut the straw so that he could use it...He looked at me, and said " Nah, that would be pretty anticlimatic"...and gave me a smug smile, like he knew he just dropped a big intelligent word, and that I was probably really impressed.

Still, none of those times beat the the day when He was watching Jimmy Neutron and I overheard them mentioning " Puberty" on the show....I asked Troy what he thought puberty meant, and he answered with.." Uhh..I don't know...Awesomeness?"

I am excited to see what else he says over the next few days.

also, on a completely and utterly different note, have you heard of Jesse Morrow?
I just learned about him and I really like this song...

I love you, for sentimental reasons...

2011-10-18T16:33:00.000-07:00

I love you, for sentimental reasons...I hope you do believe me....

I've given you my my my my my heart...

and you alone were meant for me.......Please give your loving heeeeart to me

and say we'll never part..... I think of you everymorning....I dream of you everynight
and I know that I am never lonely whenever you are in sight......I love you i love you i love you...

LOVE songs were so much better in the olden days..they are the love songs that I listen to when I feel like I love someone or have a crushy crush on them....THIS particular song, I love you for sentimental reasons...by SAM COOKE ( my main man) is a personal favorite....I will be sure to share some other favorite love songs over the next little bit..but for now, take this one in...

It surely will be played at my wedding whenever the wonder that will be!

Listen as you look at some cute little things I found while wondering through pinterest.

The wedding ring is huge.And I have never considered or dreamed of a ring that LARGE and in charge...but it is sure pretty.

I am a Believer, and I care that you know it !

2011-10-17T16:39:00.000-07:00

I have some pretty cool things to tell YOU ( yes, you) about today.
I learned so much in Church yesterday. I felt the spirit. My testimony grew...three sizes to be exact.
I love love love when the spirit touches my heart and my mind and reassures that I KNOW that the Gospel is real....Heavenly father, and Jesus Christ live.

It is real and true no matter what we say or do or think about it....no matter our opinions about whether Joseph Smith was a true prophet or not....Or if we don't agree with some of the commandments or some of the standards that we as Latter Day Saints are commanded to live by....it really doesn't matter what the dang heck we think. :) Because the truth...is the truth. And it will always be the truth.

Karen Tebbs...an ANGEL of a woman in my ward, who has gone through some hard life challenges and trials...gave the most incredible lesson in relief society--her lessons are always wonderful- but his one was outstanding...It hit me hard...and the tears came tumblin' downnnn.

The lesson was on the premortal life....and also on life after death...spirit paradise, prison, hell..and so on. I learned so much that I didn't know..and I couldn't help but think of my sweet and dear late uncle Daniel. He passed away doing what he loved, climbing, 9 years ago.
He isn't here with us now, but I know where he is...He is Teaching thousands of my relatives and ancestors about the Gospel. That is an amazing thing to think about and to remember.

Karen Tebbs, The teacher, had been married a couple times before and had some really tough struggles with her marriages. She finally found a man that she fell in love with....and then he passed away out of nowhere. She was so distraught and so sad. They hadn't even been engaged, but Karen felt that she needed to be sealed to him. And so she took the matter to the steak president and then to the first presidency and she was finally able to be sealed to a man who had passed away...and whom she had never even been engaged to. What a story.

There are many widows in my ward...and my heart just pounded for them, and for the thought of my Aunt ( who was married to my late uncle) when Karen told us about a recent visit she had with Elder Holland Just before this past conference. She said that she knew the lesson was coming up and she had questions she wanted answered.
She told it like this

" I told Elder Holland that there were many widows in our ward...and that I want to know where their husbands really are.....WHERE ARE THEY? ( Looking obviously for another answer besides the normal, " in the spirit world" answer..or something more specific) Elder Holland Pounded his fist on the table and said,

" THEY ARE WITH THEIR WIVES 24/7 365 DAYS A YEAR!""

Elder Holland to Karen Tebbs, Karen Tebbs to Cascade 4th ward relief society, to YOU.

Beautiful, sweet, tender, comforting words to a widow who has had a broken heart for years without her sweetheart by her side.

I will not forget when Sister Kaye Cope, an old woman, who has been a widow for years, came up to Karen after the lesson, grabbed her my the shoulders and said, " 24/7 ...365 days a year?!".......and Karen nodded her head. Sister Cope walked off with a smile, and tears in her eyes.
One of the sweetest moments of my life so far was witnessing that interaction. I mean..for little sister Cope to be told that her sweet husband has been with her through all of those many years when she was alone....that must have been the sweetest thing in the world to hear.

How I love Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.

" The Prophet said it, and it's TRUE.....It is up to us to believe it." - Karen Tebbs on the truthfulness of the gospel

loving looks and story books, a stream and rolling hills

2011-10-15T11:30:00.000-07:00

Brick walls in doors is one of my favorite things

Love the dark wood, the sink, the whole feeling of this kitchen...and the floor.

I have always liked the idea of Swiss family Robinson-ing. I wish it was okay, and normal, and functional to live in a tree house like this. In a story book world!

and look at this little storybook house...Kind of looks like the " UP" house. This house is in Nova Scotia, where my Papa served his LDS mission.The little dandelions are cheerful.

Here comes the Grubbery....This time of year I love comfort food and especially soup..Soup is one of my favorite things to make, because it usually involves a lot of chopping of fresh ingredients, which I love. And it is all from scratch, which is another something I love.

This is artichoke bread...kind of like spinach and artichoke dip, but without the dipping. get it? I think it looks good.

I like the office under the stairs- using space- idea. and this place looks SO clean and fresh..probably not realistic for the life I will have one day with wild children running everywhere and writing on the walls..but still, a nice dream.

Chowder, people. Reminds me of " Pete's Dragon" more than anything...just the word, " Chowder" . It is surely one of the words I get a little nervous and anxious saying around people. Just because it is sort of a funny word. I'm weird, I know. But wouldn't you like a nice bowl of this yummy CHOWDER? I would.

I love this, I love the stairs, I love the floors, I love the rug, I LOVE the color of the walls...I would have this, happily.

This pretty little dreamland of a place is located in GREECE. A place I know next to nothing about, but have always wanted to visit because of the countless beautiful pictures I have seen of it. One day.

I feel like i automatically like any food with green in it..because it makes it so much more attractive to me...maybe only because my favorite color is green..but also because it makes it have a fresher feeling and look at least a tad more healthful.....( by the way, did you know that is proper to say " healthful" and not " healthy" when you are trying to say that something is better for you..because the food itself being healthy is not what you mean, you mean that it is healthy" for you.. or " healthful" for you. Get it? I kind of feel like healthy works fine and good..because maybe you do mean that the food itself is healthy.....)

Cute little idea, right? or a good little fall dessert type personalized treat for each person...on a little plate everyone gets an apple, and apple slices, you take of the top of the apple, and there is delicious caramel inside...so you take an apple slice, and dippity dip dip dip

Another awesome idea. If I ever am the old woman who lived in a shoe...and I have children coming out of my ears and not many bedrooms, I feel like this is a FANTASTIC idea. Or as a grandmother, so that my many grandchildren can all bunk together in the toy room like this.

Never give up on anybody! What a sweet and wonderful and hopeful and lovely thing to remember and hold on to, and do. What a merciful Father in Heaven we have. Miracles do happen. People repent and change their ways...we all do! What a thing.

Some little tiny beautiful corner In some beautiful Foreign land that I have yet discovered...only in pictures for the time being.

This is the home of my choice. OR at least...this would be awesome to have in the backyard, for the children to play in, to have sleepovers in...and for guests to stay in. It will be that liveable!

YOUNG HOMIE

2011-09-22T13:30:00.000-07:00

Did you watch the X FACTOR last night?
I LOVED Chris Rene...He did an original song called " Young Homie".... I have listened to it so many times!
Why aren't all Rap songs like this one? with GOOD uplifting lyrics! Honestly, if Rap had good lyrics, it would have a completely different feel, and it would be so fun to listen to and sing along with! Honestly, "young homie" totally lifted my spirit! I am proud of this guy! What an example to others who are struggling with addictions...
Watch his addition right here...

OH, and for a laugh of a lifetime...check this guy out!

People are getting wed

2011-09-14T11:49:00.000-07:00

hitched! Left and Right, it seems.
Inside I have a lot of questions going on....
Does it make you feel super anxious and weird like it does to me, to have everyone getting married? What is my problem?Maybe I feel anxious because I feel like so many people my age are getting married..and here I am not married. But To be honest..I don't really WANT to be married! Is that because I haven't found anyone that I feel like I would want and could marry, really?
Would I want to get married if I found someone I want to marry? What am I so afraid of? ...That last question seems so obvious to one side of me! marriage is such a commitment...one person, for the rest of forever? I do not want to ever get a divorce. I don't ever want to regret marrying the person I married...I just want to be happy and have it work out. I know that there will be times when I am really mad at my husband, and when he is mad at me..I can live with those times.
There is this other side of me that is really excited to Love someone and to get married to someone...and then the other side comes in and freaks me out.
Where oh where is my boy that I am going to love so so much and want to marry?
One, will I find someone that I do love that much?
two, Will I find a boy that I love that loves me back the same?
I can't decide if I am more nervous about the first question or the second one.
How long is it going to take? ( not in a desperate kind of way..just honestly wondering) For me to find them, get to know them, fall in love with them, and want to get married? I have to meet their family, and their friends, and fit in, and have everyone love me somehow. Is that possible? I sure hope. And they have to meet my family and friends too.

Why in the world do I feel so behind here? My best friend from high school has a baby...and I don't have a boyfriend to speak of. is that why? All of the cousins my age are married/engaged. Is something wrong with me? OR are these people getting married super fast and soon? I think the latter, but that is all fine and good right? Life will just be a little different for me then it will be for them, I suppose.

I just haven't found the person I want to marry yet. At times I have felt like I loved someone enough to marry them, and maybe I could have been happy marrying them.
But I am here now with not an option of someone to marry.

and although I feel clearly a little anxious about it inside sometimes...
I am 1000% okay with it.
I think it will all come and happen at the right good time for me. .. which is an exciting thought.

I don't want anything rushed, or pushed or forced. I want natural love to flow right into my life, I want to feel completely happy and good about someone and then I want to get married ( scary to think those words) ..phew.

and
Hopefully I will feel the way Frank felt about Nancy...

Some things I like

2011-09-13T17:25:00.000-07:00

This braid...

This kitchen..

Norah Jones is the best. So pretty, so cute...beautiful music. I like her......
I also like this little Good looking man..he's on some of my favorite movies...Big Fish, star wars, moulin rouge...

Pretty bed I would like to have

Do you like mint chocolate ice cream? I really like it...so maybe I would like these cookies? And...they're green. :)

Cute Halloween pumpkins

I would just love to be able to eat dinner like this..

And and awesome GREEN door...

Happy Birthday

2011-09-09T17:15:00.000-07:00

So I decided that instead of leaving the expected " Happy birthday " Message on my Brother Cade's facebook wall that I would leave him some different " Happy birthday" renditions by some famous people, etc. I ended up staying up pretty late just finding these different happy birthday videos on youtube!

Late night starry sky

2011-09-09T00:31:00.000-07:00

Nights aren't as warm as they were a couple weeks ago...It is going to be fall here soon enough. It makes me want to get outisde and lay under the stars at least one more time before it get's too chilly outside to do it.
Night time..and stars...and summer. I love those sweet things. There are some songs that I like to listen to when it is night time and there is a starry sky... This one:

This one:

this one

Coldplay is nighttime music, for me. I love Coldplay. It kinda puts me into a dream-like state sometimes..a good dreamy feeling.

I think of Vincent Van gogh and I would have been good friends.

will you be my friend?

2011-09-05T14:00:00.000-07:00

I feel a little funny sometimes talking about sentimental heavy things on my blog, but I don't think I should feel that way. I feel like I have the tendency to be a little overly emotional or deep about some subjects, and to write them on a blog so that everyone can see, is maybe going a little too far, or sort of weird for other people to read. ...Infact, I feel really weird reading the last blog post that I made....Can I apologize for that? It was really late, and I was in a weird goofy mood. I think I get nervous that people might be like, " Oh brother..." If I start using quotes and being all deep or something.
Actually though, who really cares? If you say " Oh brother..." then the joke is on you.
Anyway, I wanted to post something about my relief society lesson yesterday in church...(oh brother)
The lesson was on FRIENDSHIP. It was a good lesson..it really got me to thinking about some things.

I have always had a " best friend" or a couple of them...Usually just one or two, maybe three, that I was super close to, that I would talk to about everything, and that I would do everything with. I really really love my friends. I love making new friends. Really, I just love people...
BUT I really love my best friends( Infact, I get super emotional just thinking about them!) I just love what they do for me in my life. They make life so much more enjoyable and happy...and easy, just be being there to listen, giving advice, making me laugh... whatever it is.
Anyway, the lady who was giving the lesson had a little sign up that said
" A friend may be waiting behind a stranger's face"
I really really like that. But I think I would change it to
" A friend is waiting behind every stranger's face"
I feel like recently I have experienced that for myself! I think that If you will make the effort to ask a stranger some questions about them, or just start talking to someone for a few minutes....that some sort of interest will be sparked, and you will be interested in learning more about that person.
If you take the time to talk to them and get to know them, you will see how awesome each individual is, how unique and different, and interesting they are....Why they act the way they do, how they were raised, What they love and why they love it, awesome/happy/sad stories from their lives that we can learn from.
People are so awesome.They have so much to share and to give just with their individuality. They are so cool.
You know who some GREAT friend makers are???? Little Kids. I mean, little kids will just be playing on some random playground and will start playing with any other little kid or person around. Haha! Think..sometimes they don't even bother to ask their name, and they aren't afraid to ask funny questions like .." Is that your mom?" .." Why does she have short hair like a boy?"
I just love that...We can totally learn from little children. They are so good at making friends. ..And I think it is because they aren't worried about dumb things that we are that keep us from being as friendly, and kind to people as we should be.
..honestly...If we just talked more to strangers, asked them questions, showed interest and treated people like we cared about them, and their lives, and we made more friends...wouldn't the world just be a more friendly happier place? I honestly think it would end a lot of problems that we have. Because People would feel accepted, special, appreciated,and cared about ( because they had a friend!..someone that they could talk to, that would listen to them). People would not feel as alone...People wouldn't be as judgmental! Because after getting to know people, they would UNDERSTAND why they are the way that they are.

Sometimes I feel like life would be so hard if I didn't have my friends...I am so so happy that I have them, so grateful for them! Friends are suppose to lift us up and make us better, easy the burdens of life for one another.... and to think, some people really don't have any friends...and some people might feel like they don't want any friends..But I think that everyone needs a friend, and everyone would want a friend, if they could see what having a real good friend is like.

My sophmore year of high school I was in Biology. It was a little classroom, with sort of a random assortment of very different types of people in the class. I sat next to a boy who had all black clothing, chains, piercings, a mohawk, and blasting screamo music in his ears everyday. We were really really different people, and at first, I felt a little scared and awkward having to be lab partners with him, and just trying to communicate with him....looking back, I don't know what the heck I was thinking, or WHY I was afraid to talk to this boy...just because he was different than me.
So, this one day , for some reason, I had the courage to start asking him questions...I wanted to get to know him, I wanted to understand him better, and I wanted to give being friends with him a try.
I started asking him questions...just anything...what his favorite color was, favorite food, what he liked to do for fun, What his favorite food was... ( His favorite food was Poptarts)
I asked him all of these questions...and guess what I found out? This guy who was sort of scary- looking to me. Turned out to be one of the most soft spoken, nice , and cool guy! We talked every class, we became FRIENDS. as different as we were, we became friends. And I understood a lot better why he was the way he was...I wasn't scared of him anymore...and I'm not scared of other people that look like him now. We still talk here and there. He sends me facebook messages asking me whats going on in my life and how I am doing...and we keep in touch. I really really love that we are friends. It has given me the confidence to talk to other people who are strangers , and different from me....and I just keep making more and more friends!

Can someone not be your friend because they are totally different from you? I say Nay nay nay. In fact, on the contrary! They definitely indeed can. Who cares if they are different? ( of course they are)

If you want to make a friend, start talking to someone....it doesn't matter what age, race, or religion they are. We should never be afraid to give people compliments, or ask questions, or just smile and say hello and ask how someone is doing. ( It is sort of awkward or scary sometimes, But it shouldn't be...what are we afraid of??) People want to have friends! ( even if they don't act like they do) :)

"If you don't love someone, you don't know them", was written on a little sticky note on my friends wall.
I completely believe that. If you don't love someone....you don't know them. Not really...
Because If you knew them...You would love them. ( Maybe not everything they do.. but you would love them, because you would understand them.) I think that is why God really loves us...Because he really really knows us... He made us, he knows who we are, he knows are hearts, he understands us...( maybe he understands that we can be really stupid sometimes) But he loves us regardless. He is a good good friend.

Aww ... Autumn

2011-09-01T14:36:00.000-07:00

I cannot wait for the leaves to change, and for it to get a little cooler, and be sweater weather. I love this time of year. Soup and cider and caramel apples, fall walks, hikes, and bike rides. Sounds so good to me.

prettiest friend

2011-08-31T14:11:00.000-07:00

I had never heard this song before...

I think it is maybe my top favorite jason mraz song

I like...

2011-08-30T21:22:00.000-07:00

Maybe you have already seen all of this on Pinterest...... At first I looked at pinterest and felt overwhelmed a little bit, and I am usually turned off by any " new thing"...( which is lame.) BUT...I looked, and I like....
These Green shoes. anything green...but these shoes, this time.

This house is awesome

pretty pretty

One of my top favorite movies...what if this was real life?

I think that I like this house better than the last.

It would be crazy if any laundry room ever really looked like this! So pretty and clean and nice...is that a third washer?? or dryer?

I really like the tile and the white

fancy shmancy

inspires me to make my own quilt!

Another really cool house..summer house?

I love this little thing.

Beautiful NYC during the fall..

This is a snickerdoodle cake....

I really like this

pretty wedding idea..

I like this too

The diamond is hugantic but I really like the band! What if the diamond was smaller? very pretty wedding ring that I might want

Thought this picture was cute. Rings are my favorite jewelery

and last but not least....... THIS GUY....I Found him in our computer files??? I bet he is super nice and funny.

Oh mexico

2011-08-26T15:03:00.000-07:00

You know James Taylor.....
He is getting old!

Just look at him in his prime youth! He was totally handsome.

But do you know of his Babe-of-a-son , Ben?.......

You are missing out big time if you don't! He sounds a lot like his papa.

Not only do I love his music...But my mom showed me this video she found of him the other day, and I watched it three or four times! It is a really funny/gross/ sad story...but just the way he talks and explains everything is so cute. ..haha.. You need to watch it if you have the time, or if you find guys like him cute, like I do.
I sort of get these crushes on famous people sometimes...and I have a major one on Ben Taylor!

I have absolutely no doubt that he would like me back. :)

Just watch this video...the way he talks! And the cute gap in his teeth...I'm being serious.
I am sorry, but I am into him.
And listen to his little version of " I will " by john lennon.

It is one of my all time favorite love songs!

GREEN

2011-06-28T15:11:00.000-07:00

My favorite color...the color of LIFE ! ( is what I say)...trees, grass, bushes.....GREEN is so lush and beautiful and fresh to me. GOING GREEN"--- what does it really really mean? http://www.all-recycling-facts.com/what-does-going-green-mean.html maybe the title going green is a little cliche or too trendy for you... but lately I have been thinking... If I want to maintain this life and earth and greeness, that God has blessed us all with, and that I love so much... Shouldn't I do my best to take care of it? yessity yes yes yes. AND shouldn't I take care of my body? Lately I have been learning a lot more about organic foods..herbs...healthy things that are more nutritious and good for you..and I have decided that I definitely want to eat more healthy. I never have been a really unhealthy eater...I very rarely have fast food/ fried foods...potato chips..sugar cereal...white bread.... BUT I have a a pretty big sweet tooth...and since I started working in a bakery I have been eating more sweets than should ever be allowed! I have probably put on some weight...realistically probably not as much as I think..but I feel like I have gained some poundage!... ANYway... So I have been reading up on a lot of things, and I like what I am reading! And...as I have been eating much healthier latley..and stopped eating sugar and cookies from the bakery every single day...I have felt so so so GOOD! And guess what..I have even stopped craving as much sugar. I KNOW....I know that " going green" and all organic and granola is what's sort of the trend right now...and a lot of people might be annoyed or think It was sort of lame to be following a trend...BUT...I really believe that If those people really care about their bodies...and read up about it all, they would definitely want to join in the organic lifestyle..especially because the food...in my opinion, is SO much fresher and better tasting when it's healthy..unprocessed, homemade deliciousness! I myself have always sort of just thought that organic " basically just meant " expensive" in the grocery stores..I knew a tiny bit about pesticides and I didn't care...I popped fruits into my mouth without washing them, etc....and I still will probably do that sometimes anyways ( Because I am still alive and well as far as I can see!) So today I went and made a couple stops at some health food stores and bought some good things to make some delicious healthy food with... Kale, Spinach, Chard, Basil, parsley, ginger..all sorts of fruits and veggies...pesticide free! I just made a Green smoothie, which turned out a little funky...but It was good for a real first time making one up on my own! Here is what I put in it.... 2 Large Kale leaves 1 yellow chard leaf 1 celery stalk 1 carrot 1/2 a fuji apple 1 cup raw broccoli 1 cup ice 1 cup pineapple juice Now I am a complete beginner,and I was only experimenting on this green drink...and for some reason I feel like it is kind of throthy....If you know what I'm sayin. The flavor is fantastic..it's just the texture that I don't love. So maybe I will continue on with my exploration and continue to post about it. I will surely be posting pictures and recipes of any delicious healthful meals that I make.

Remembering freddie

2011-03-24T14:27:00.000-07:00

This man had talent! I really love how energetic and passionate he is on stage too.
Watch Barcelona for sure. It is killer. feeel it within yourself!

Hello hellooOoo

2011-03-04T12:04:00.000-08:00

My latest favorites

Snack:
Walnuts and honey/ Asian pear and almond butter

Magazine:
Real Simple. Loved January's.

Song:
ain't love somethin'- Sam& Ruby
Sydney I'll come runnin'- Brett dennen
End of May- Michael the buble

Shoe:
Eurostep woman on deck.....so comfortable/ casual/ cute

Drink:
100% carrot juice. Seriously it's totally good, not to mention the healthy eye benefits!

Thing to say:
"JIMMER!"

Favorite book:
The glass castle
Mere christianity

Sandwich:
Wheat bread, cinnamon creamed honey, banana

Happy Place:
Work-----I know it sounds funny- But I really am a happy person at work- with great friends and things to laugh about.
Playing the Piano --------I am taking lessons, and I feel happy and good about learning and becoming better at something that I have always wanted to be good at!

and- cooking or baking something with some good music.:)

Thing to wear:
Jeans...pants.....shocker!

Sweet:
Almond and sea salt dark chocolate. So good!

Hair Product: Any Bumble and Bumble spray....thickening, prep, tonic.

Face Product: Clean&Clear Advantage- popped p-word relief. This stuff is heaven sent!

What am I doing Today?

2011-02-24T09:49:00.000-08:00

TODAY, is a good good day. It's a FREEbee day...which means that I don't have work, I don't have school, and I can do whatever it is that I please! I have a few Ideas of what I want to do today..some things that I have wanted to do for sometime now!

Here is what the List looks like:

- Clean my apartment bedroom
- Grocery store for the things I am making below...
-Make a delicious edamame spread that I have a great recipe for
- Make a panini for lunch
- Make a batch of homemade granola ( that has been craved for weeks now!)
- Start brain storming ideas for Kate and I's little creative business
-Work out
- Do something fun tonight with someone fun! :)

I will surely post pictures of all of this when I am finished with the end product :)

emotions RUNNIN high

2011-01-25T12:55:00.001-08:00

My mom always asks me, " what's wrong?" when I walk in the door, and I'm not singing.

I guess I sing when I am happy, and I am usually always pretty happy! and so I sing all of the time.

She said that her Dad was the exact same way. When he was happy you knew he was happy, because he was singing and whistling. But when he wasn't singing or whistling...you ran and hid because you knew that something was wrong, or someone was in trouble!

Haha its funny how people show their emotions differently. Some people are so mellow all of the time, and you really can't tell when they are really happy or when they are really sad.

I am not one of those people. I think I wear my feelings on my sleeve a lot of the time. And usually I am a happy person.

EMOTIONS run deep in me. I feel really happy, and then I feel really sad.

This past week I have felt both highs and lows of both HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY emotions and SAD emotions....but....I just watched this video....

and It made me feel happy again.

There is just too much to be happy about in the world. There are too many beautiful things, There are so many blessings, there is life to be happy about! Sometimes it's easier said than done...but We definitely have the choice to turn out frowns upside down whenever we want. If we want to be sad, and we tell ourselves that we are sad. Then we are sad. If we decide to be happy and LAUGH..whatever the circumstances.. we can be happy again.

The other thing is this though....It's okay to be sad sometimes. and its okay to feel alone sometimes. They are good feelings for us. we learn and grow from them, and we appreciate our happy times so much more.

Sometimes the sadness seems like its too painful or too much to even handle...But that's not true.
NO matter how gray and cloudy a day may appear...There is a blue sky right behind those clouds...and it surely will show itself soon enough. and the sun will come out, and life will feel a whole lot happier.

HAPPY IS BEST.

Have you seen...

2011-01-19T19:34:00.000-08:00

TANGLED?

I know it's been out for quite a while..
But I just saw it...and Let me just say...I completely completely LOVED it!

I am obsessed maybe.
Mandy Moore did a fantastic job. I love all of the music.

I would give anything for that hair. Not just because of the magic. MOstly because of the length and strength and beauty of it all.

oh, and I cried when her parents finally get to see their daughter again.

dream a little dream of me

2011-01-13T13:47:00.000-08:00

Last night I dreamed I was in Hawaii. While lounging on the beach with my family we were laughing and talking about how crazy it was that only yesterday we were in the freezing Utah weather..and now we were in paradise!

...It was a dream. Just a dream! And I was SO sure that it was real. I kept thinking to myself" is this a dream..." but It felt real!

It's funny now to think back on the dream and realize that there were MANY weird things happening and going on that seemed very normal at the time. For instance...On the plane ride from one island to another I was feeling sick and grabbed a bag to throw up in....when the man behind me told me to stop because he had just gone to the bathroom in that bag! - That seemed really normal in the dream. haha

I really wish that dream was real. I would LOVE to be in Hawaii right now.

Do you dream alot?
I always dream.
I guess what I mean is, do you remember your dreams?..because My mom once told me that you always dream..you just don't always remember them.

I remember my dreams almost everyday! And my dreams are so vivid and real.
It probably explains my unreal amount of sleep talking!

One night my friend Kate heard me laughing to myself and making this swishing sound effect and then say " The sound of a slap is the funniest thing!!"

anyway, listen to this song " dream a little dream of me" by the mamas and papas.
You have probably already heard it. But it has been in my head for a few weeks now...
it may put you in a dream like state... jk

But really..what a great song! Mama Cass is the best.

Johnny

2011-01-12T11:53:00.000-08:00

Johnny..is one of my favorite boy names.
I just think that it's handsome.
Johnny...James....these are great names.

and it just so happens to be the name of this guy...

I am sorry, but I am so attracted to Johnny Depp.
He is just so mysteriously beautiful, you know?

Have you ever thought about what type of dream guy is your " you would if you could, but it would never happen" guy?
DO you know what I mean?
Like...some people want someone like..I don tknow, a professional football player, who is super jokey and really good looking in a blonde hair sort of abercrombie sort of way..tad hamilton esk
...and some people like me....like guys who are mysteriously beautiful...they have long hair..free spirits...very hippy and deep....

and for a minute you completely want to be that..you want to be the girl that he would love and you want to live that lifestyle and just be that....sort of a movie feeling. You picture what kind of clothes you would wear..what kind of music you would listen to..where and what you would eat....sometimes I picture what Johnny and I might look like in a paparazzi picture of us walking down a street in Europe...or of us on the red carpet.
......

of course you dont REALLY want this to happen.
but you kind of do. For a minute at least.

well Johnny Depp pretty much describes the kind of dream guy I would love to fall madly in love with....It will and would never happen..because we live lifestyles that are completely different and.... it just would'nt happen!

But it's fun to think about with your friends.

ANYWAY

I know this post is silly ..I may be the only one who thinks like this.

It wouldn't surprise me if that's true..because I also wish I was an elf....

but of course I'm not TOTALLy obsessed with Johnny Depp..haha and I don't always look up pictures of him or anything... just today.

It feels like years since it's been here

2011-01-08T11:54:00.000-08:00

HERE COMES THE SUN, and i say, it's alright.
Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
little darling it feels like years since its been here,
here comes the sun.....here comes the sun, and I say, its alright!!!

If I close my eyes hard enough... It's a sunny beautiful day, I'm on a walk in the sunshine, there is a light breeze,i'm barefooted, with a nice light and breezy summer dress on...and nothing could be better!

I know I need to appreciate the snowy white world while it is here...but SOMETIMES I can't help but miss my time!...My sunny time where I belong.
I don't have to be on a beach, or somewhere exotic, although those places are wonderful and beautiful.

I just need to be in my own neighborhood, with my mountains that I know and my trees and everything that smiles under the sun in my little neighborhood!

in the words of the genius Beatles....Goodday sunshine....and what a good day it INDEED will be...when the sunshine comes back! and the green trees and grass are here...and the beautiful colors of flowers!
I long for the freshness of spring...and warm summer night walks that have no end!

love

2010-12-31T13:00:00.000-08:00

Love Sonnet 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:

But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

love songs, love movies, loving words, loving eyes, and so on and so forth...what beautiful things that I love!

And sometimes the movie that I like to watch when I'm feeling like Love, is Moulin Rouge.

just watch these scenes..

Aren't you just overcome with the love that is just filling your heart to the tip top?

Love is the most wonderful and beautiful thing.
I cannot get enough of it

winter falling

2010-12-24T00:16:00.001-08:00

softly, silent, quiet night
brilliant glow, hushing snow
coldest lips, warming cheek
kissing eyes, gently speak

change

2010-12-20T14:34:00.000-08:00

I want to change. I haven't been to my full potential lately, spiritually,mentally, physically, emotionally.... I don't think I have been myself. Because myself is much better than how I have been acting. I am grateful to have divine potential to become something greater than I know!

I am grateful for the opportunity we have to CHANGE when we want to. We can choose who we want to be. I want to be something great, and someone who Heavenly Father is very very proud of. I want to be someone who brightens days, who smiles, who is kind and loving and generous.

I don't want to waste anymore of my time worrying about things that don't matter...I want to always be learning and growing and becoming a better person. I want to progressively become better and better in life, and I know that I can do that, If ONLY I CHOOSE TO!

There is one Sure steady rock in life, and that is the gospel.
The gospel changes peoples lives. It makes the cloudiest days seem bright and it makes the stars shine at night!
What a wonderful beautiful day it was when Jesus Christ was born. The day when Our HOPE was born. He came to save us.
He loves us and only wants the best for us
Why can't we fully trust him?
Why do we doubt him?
Why do we continue to ignore his example instead of embrace it fully in our lives?
How could we ever choose to turn away from him?

LOVE is a miraculous thing that heals hearts and makes the world go round.
Kindness, thoughtfulness, service, words of love and appreciation, forgiveness, smiling faces,gratitude, giving to those in need, lending a helping hand, lifting others burdens....these are the things that are important..
Not the way you look. Not the clothes you wear. Negative or impure thoughts, Not what others say about you. Not inappropriate movies, books, magazines, not bad language or cruelty , hate, war....
Those things get you nowhere in life, They will only bring sorrow and misery.

The world is full of a lot of bad things.....But you can choose to focus on that, or you can choose to focus on yourself and keep yourself out of those things, and into the things that really matter and important. Things that are True and things that are Beautiful, things that will make you HAPPY. The Truth that will make you free!

I know that.
I want to live like I know it.
I want to change and become a better than just a "good" person ...
I know that can be hard to do, but I also know that It is very very very possible, because ANYTHING is possible if the Lord is on your side. And, I think that he definitely is on anyone's side who wants to make a change in their life ( big or small) to turn to him.

my heart feels full. Full of gratitude that I know what I know and that I can be what I want to be with some help from the Lord. I won't ever be perfect in this life ( and even though that is sort of annoying to accept in some ways) I can have patience with myself and allow the Lord to take me by the hand and lead me in the right path.

The future is clear and the future is bright when you stay close to the Lord.

some lovely angel

2010-12-16T14:42:00.000-08:00

DO you like Dave Matthews?
I started to really love him about a year and a half ago....He is good.
I know he plays a lot of long instrumentals that might be hard to deal with for so long, but,
I just feel like he is so passionate. I love that.
And he plays pretty intros..like the one on this version of "some devil"....
I just like him.
His music puts me in a sort of hypnotic state or something...sort of dream-like! It kind of makes you feel like you are in love...or that you want to be in love. You get me? :)

nasty wasty skunk!

2010-12-14T09:56:00.000-08:00

Has anyone thoroughly listened and appreciated the words to the song, "You're a mean one, Mr. Grinch?"
Can anyone tell me that that song is not the silliest funniest, and meanest song in the world?

To be called a nasty wasty skunk....
to have the three BEST words to describe you be " stink" "stank" and "stunk"!
To have a seasick crocodile taken over you, anyday?!
To be told your heart is full of unwashed socks?!?! ( What a terrible thing to say!)

2010-12-07T10:15:00.001-08:00

ben gibbard on my mind

2010-12-06T15:39:00.000-08:00

If you are among the very young at heart

2010-11-12T18:27:00.000-08:00

And if you should survive till a hundred and five, look at all you'll derive out of being alive
and this is the best part,you have a head start
if you are among the very young at heart!

So are you?

Sense and Sensibility

2010-10-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

I love this scene from sense and sense...isn't it lovely?

My casita

2010-10-01T14:35:00.000-07:00

....pretty cute yes? Honestly, the place needed some work...and I still have a hard time with the carpet, the sicky- plastic tile flooring in the kicthen, and the counter tops, etc. ( I just am picky when it comes to living accomodations I guess...no. Thats not it actually. I think I just am so anxious to have a little house of my own that I can redo/fix up/ and style on my own...so it's just hard when you are brought into some place and you just have to try your best to make it look cute, you know?)
The original couch fabric was the death...I mean, so so terrible. So I found these little duve covers in my basement blanket closet, and there was enough to throw over these couches!
Mama painted the picture, which is a replica of one of her fabrics in one of her lines...it was originally for her booth at a Fabric Market...and we were lucky enough to be able to steal it for our casita! Mama also gave me the plant on the right for my birthday, and the little cabinet that it sits on was given to me by one of my most dear friends, Dallin, for Valentines day last year. The other things... Honestly, mostly everything else was just found around my parents house/Things that Kate had from her house/things I have collected or things that I have homemade.
I live with Kate Clark, my beautiful best friend. It has just been an absolute blast so far. I really really love it. Our bedroom is actually pretty cute as well...I will have to take pictures...once it is clean!

It's been ages..

2010-09-27T14:54:00.000-07:00

A few updates:
1. I am the best blogger
2. I live in an apartment, for my very first time. I love living out, I don't love apartments in general...actually, generally I hate apartments.... but I love my apartment, because it's mine, and I it's pretty cute. I will post pictures, once I finish sewing the rest of the pillows for my couches.
3. I decided that when I am a grandma I want to go by " Honey"....I just think it's sweet. I don't love "grandma"...I don't love "mama" ...and I don't think I am " nana" material...So I will go by Honey. My sisters mother-in-law goes by " Grandmere" which I think its pretty pretty....but still not for me! ---I know it's a little funny to be thinking about what I want to be called as a grandma when I am only 20...but I tend to think ahead, and I just thought I would mention that I call dibs on " Honey".

Well, Those are all of the updates I feel are needed to be said to the public for the time being...I will post pictures of the recent happenings and so on very very soon!

Happy happy day for this guy ^^^^^^^^^^^^

black holes..

2010-08-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

When you organize cupboards and clean out junk drawers and sewing rooms you find all sorts of little treasures...
- a pair of old favorite and " lost" earrings
- clear nail polish that I've been needing so badly
-nail clippers
- 12470973 hair bands, and little hair claw-clippies, and bobby pins that I always loose and then buy more buy more buy more and lose lose lose!!
-lots of quarters, lots of pennies, nickels and dimes..for the change jar
-plenty of keys...that open who knows what..they have been lost for so long we aren't sure what they're to!
- letters that were suppose to be sent to missionary friends! missionary friends that are home now!
- receipts that weren't found in time to return an item
--and the list goes on!

isn't it funny how things just disappear and you often swear that a little elf must live in your house and steal your little things or how there is some black hole that all your socks somehow crawl over and fall into....then somehow they just end up somewhere so obvious...or, in an old random drawer or somewhere you hadn't thought to look.

It feels so good to clean things, organize them, and make them look good! You feel so new.
Now before mom or I sews or creates any type of craft we will know exactly what we have and where to find it..so that we don't go out to buy more!

My favorite treasure of the day was a little LDS along card, with this quote glued to the back:

" God does notice us, and he watches over us. But it is usually through another person that he meets our needs. Therefore, it is vital that we serve each other... In the Doctrine and Covenants we read about how important it is to 'succor the weak,lift up the hands which hang down, and strengthen the feeble knees.'(D&C 81:5.) So often our acts of service consist of simple encouragement or of giving mundane tasks---but what glorious consequences can flow from mundane acts and from small but deliberate deeds"
- President Spencer W. Kimball

Really makes you want to go do some service, right?
And it fell into my hands at such a perfect time.

Bright Star

2010-08-10T23:36:00.000-07:00

Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art--
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors--
No--yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever--or else swoon to death.
- John Keats

Isn't that pleasant?

I love it.

I want the soundtrack. I imagine it would be rather pleasant as well.

August

2010-08-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

I love August...

For a number of reasons... Just the whole feel of it all...I mean, it's sad that school starts in ways..but it is pretty fun to pick out your outfit for the first day of school...get all your pencils and books and folders labeled " algebra" "science" " health" etc etc...and while your thinking of school...you start to get that fall feeling...that schoolish-fallish-octoberish- leaves falling from the trees-sweater weather-soup feeling! and when you start thinking about all of those things..you get excited for those kinds of clothes and hats and colors...and you're for sure already considering ( if you haven't already changed your mind 5 times...) what your going to be for Halloween that year...and if you're like me, you love the rainy dark school days, when your all nestled in your desk at school ..sitting Indian style, eating wheat thins that you brought in a little ziploc bag, while the whole class is working quietly! (Who likes to be sitting behind a desk like that on sunny days?!)

at least, this all goes for me. Every year, the same feelings!
So I looked around for some good fall attire......

Do you like?

Really cute fall stuff from Anthropologie right now...I realize I could find some of those Nordstrom sweaters for about 89480938409 dollars cheaper at thrift stores..but some of those excellent things from anthro....might be hard to pass up even for the mucho cash flow they're asking for!

P.s....I know it's still summer..I hope it's not too much of a sick feeling to talk about fall this soon..I totally get it if that's how you feel....It is maybe a little depressing to think of leafless trees right now.

Practical Magic

2010-08-03T12:19:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite movies. .(We have never owned it, but it was always one of the movies we rented, along with heavy weights, and james and the Giant peach.)... Starring Sanda Bullock and Nicole Kidman...Infact, this might have been the first movie I saw Nicole Kidman in.I just love this movie. The setting and the little town it's shot in is just my dream town! It's very old and has big trees and overgrown plants, which give it that historic feeling that I love oh so much.
What do you think of this house?! I know its a little scary in a way...pretty haunted looking, and very "witchy" but isn't it awesome? I mean, I could definitely brew up my own herbal tea in this house..and think of cooking something totally earthy and organic in that kitchen! It would just be so nice.

If you haven't seen the movie, you should watch it, I think you will like it...It is a little scary, but very superstitious and magical...which I love!!

Here is a quick little clip:

I Could Take a Little NuNu

2010-08-02T14:01:00.000-07:00

In any of these beautiful beddie bies.......Fresh whites and creams
wood floors and even some wood walls
curtains that pull around the beddie
comfortable fluffy rugs
candles and alot of natural light.... need I say more?

Heaven, People...Heaven.

NuNu= Napy= Nap

tomorrow I'm going to post pictures from one of my most favorite movies, Practical Magic! The house is just...the coolest place...a house I would LOVE to have...YOU will want to have it too, I am sure...especially if you like magic and witches,like me! :)

My whole house is great, I can do anything good, I like anything!

2010-07-28T11:18:00.000-07:00

So I stole this little Video from littlemissmomma.blogspot.com. She is a friend of my older sisters and has all sorts of cute things on there, that you should take a look at!
I can't get enough of this video..It is hilarious but just so awesome!

Isn't this video inspirational ?..Seriously, what a positive attitude!

It reminds me of my best lady friend Kate Clark and I working out at Golds gym, and then later while changing in the locker rooms, standing infront of the mirrors in our underwear and saying (loudly) " I'M Strrrrrrrrrrrrrrrroooooonnnnnnnggggggg!!!!!!" ( while flexing, of course)!!

I'm a firm believer of Positive Affirmations :)

I love love love

2010-07-26T09:40:00.000-07:00

A few years back I was introduced to this lovely place.....It's truly better than any other yogurt joint around this town! Best flavor, best texture, best toppings....etc etc. It's like a must have after dinner treat that just makes you feel like a million bucks... I'll just have to wait for the next Cali trip before I enjoy such a delicious freshening delectable yum!

It's Raining Apricots

2010-07-23T19:25:00.000-07:00

At my house, anyway!

Look at this beautiful scenery from my backyard,and check out our wonderful Apricot Tree!

Just look at those little guys!
Just plump and beautifully colored....ah, I just love it.


I have always wanted to have all sorts of fruit trees in my future yard...apricot,cherry,PEACH, Plum...etc etc...It will be wonderful to have such great  fresh delicious fruit coming into the home so that I can bake scrumptious goodies and, as I did this afternoon,....JAM!I can't wait to try this out on some fresh warm homemade wheat bread.

Maybe one day after Culinary School I'll have my own little shop where I sale all sorts of Jams like these, and fruit tarts, pies, popsicles...and so on! that is a sweet dream that I have and hope to have become reality someday!
I will be sure to make another batch tomorrow :)

Oh Lovely lovely day

2010-07-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

I apologize for all of the video posting lately, but here is another that must be seen!

I love it

P.s.

2010-07-05T18:54:00.000-07:00

It's "Something Funny Tuesday"

I wish I could put somehow get the this full YO Gabba Gabba show on...the whole thing is so so funny. I just love Jack Black. Here is one of my favorite scenes though. Check out the move at 3:16!

Foreign Country

2010-07-05T14:02:00.000-07:00

I was invited to this little show while in NYC last month.. and I absolutely loved what I heard! this little lady... Christina Courtin.. was there. I liked her a lot and looked her up when I got home! You should listen and let me know what you think...she is different, and funky, and a little weird...which Is what I like! She totally feels it! Just give her a chance.. It gets better as it goes.I really think she has a good voice!.......... What do you think? Do you like?

delicious goodness

2010-06-16T19:18:00.000-07:00

I love Nutella . .. don't you?
Its just good... You can put it on and In so many delicious things!
So I thought I would share this little recipe my sister Brittney gave me years ago...
They are really simple and they only bake really quick. Give them a try :)

Nutella Cookies

In a bowl mix:
1 and 3/4 cup flour
1 ts. Baking soda
1/2 ts. salt

and set it aside.

In a mixing bowl:

1 stick of butter softened
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar

mix until well creamed
then add:

1 Brown egg
( If I don't have brown I do white.. they're still great)
1 ts. Vanilla
( the barefoot contessa would say " Good" vanilla... I guess opposed to "bad" vanilla...just use the real thing haha)
1/2 cup Nutella

and cream together.

slowly add the flour mixture to the wet mixture.

When batter is all integrated make the dough into little balls
a little bigger than one inch
bake in preheated oven for about 6 minutes
at this point you can add a little chocolate kiss
on the top of each cookie and then return to oven for
2 more minutes.

If you want to skip e chocolate kiss, Bake the cookies for about 8 minutes
(I take mine out before they look really done because I like mine really soft.)
You just don't want the bottoms to get brown.

and enjoy!

I also wanted to share my very own homemade chocolate sauce recipe!

I have never been a crazy fanatic " I have to have my daily chocolate" type of person.....
Infact, I usually opt for desserts that do not contain any sort of chocolate
But....one day there were some friends over and we needed a little chocolate sauce to go with our angel food cake..So I just whipped this up and it was surprisingly delicious.

It goes great on ice cream...it's fantastic over angel food cake with strawbs and fresh whipped cream......delicious on fruit.....and sometimes I just eat it by the spoonful! You definitley need to try it.

Here it is:

Paige's choco sauce

In a medium sauce pan combine:

1 stick butter
1/2 cup chocolate chips
1 1/2 cans sweet and condensed milk
about 1/2 cup nutella
Just cook over medium until
melted and combined
then stir in
1 ts. vanilla

tah dah! delicious chocolate

You can store the extra chocolate by keeping it in a container in the fridge.
Just get it out and heat it in the microwave when your craving it again!

Have a happy, lovely, beautiful, delicious day